[Verse 1]

Dear Ryan, I know this song is overdue

I would try to write it, I would just cry at pics of you

And things are changin', but so am I

Remember findin' out the news my Dad told me my only brother died

You were my rock and I look up to you forever

You left me all alone and I just hope you're livin' better

Broken hearted Ryan homie, you made a mistake

You and Dad both made a promise, didn't think that shit would break

Always so nostalgic when I'm flyin' back to home

I just talk with Dad when I start to feel alone

You were all I live for, brother from the start

Even though you're in the ground, you live forever in my heart

[Verse 2]

You were talkin' on those church steps after [?] died

You picked me up and wiped my tears up on that summer night

14 days past and I wake up to a suicide

Grab my phone and call Gram, shocked as fuck, but gettin' by

And said she'll call me freshman year to say he love me

I was out in Arizona, Jack out in Kentucky

Countless nights I would break down in my dorm room

Wanted to come home, but thought the pain would end soon

Oh no, it didn't, caught emotional stitches

College; wanted to quit it, but couldn't, I didn't get it

So I went to music, to take away the pain

Tried to get up off it, but memories didn't fade

Growin' up now a man, but Ryan, no, never change

You talk [?] stand tall, say, "Fuck 'em," and be yourself

Doin' this on my own for you, don't need no help

Wrote this song for the books and feelings I couldn't shelf

What's up?