God damaged you, but God made you

I love you, and I know that I can hate you

I’d be careful, but our relationship is already a trap

And since no one is listening I’m ready to snap

I will kill you before I let you breathe, you’d better be

Here for me whenever I need you, or my energy

Will be released upon you, alcohol is the end of me

But nothing I can do to you will get me any sentencing

It’s tempting but I’ll never put my pen to sleep

Why are you crying I thought you liked getting beat

I can’t live without you, it’s love, I’d never speak

If you ever left me it would be life-threatening

I don’t pursue another day of hurting you

But every time I get my hands on you, I take it personal

I would frame a photograph as far as the eye can see

As far as I can see I’ll make you silent if you try to scream

I think I’m obsessed with you, I can’t help it

And you are no one else’s – I know I’m selfish

We’re apart for a few days, I’m so jealous

I’m no gentleman my ugliness is overwhelming

And you’re no different, no; you’re SO different, illicit drugs

Turn you from a regular bitch into a bitch I love

Where do I get it from? – What I did, I shake my head

Don’t say what I did, be careful, you may wake the dead

Why do you love me? I use you to come clean

Admit what I did, but you won’t throw a fit or punch me

And nobody knows – people don’t look deep enough

I won’t exhale – I’ll close my mouth and keep it shut

I hope you keep quiet about what I like to do

To you when I’m drunk off anxieties and fighting you

I grab a rifle and a knife, I don’t like to choose

Slice and bruise you till I feel better, then cry to you

It’s tragic that I write sins, I try to write them slow

If it weren’t for you I’d have died quite a while ago

I’m alone but hey, I’m only slightly suicidal

I’ve finally chose to fight for life, and what I decide is final

Ninety Tylenol, Pine sol, crying and all

Trying to crawl to call 911, write on the wall

I’m not a good person; everybody I am sorry

You can ask anybody from Marley to Samantha or Carley

I’ve cheated on every girl because I put you first

And any result that could occur I always would endure

I wouldn’t leave you, I would leave them, but you don’t make me

Admitting an affair is a way to treat no lady

So know changing is something my mood is always doing

I’ll never know if this is therapeutic or harmful music

I can’t handle my thoughts; I’m getting off-topic

My desires whisper in my ear while God watches

If my life is not love then it’s all nonsense

I’d rather fall unconscious than make small progress

Arguments are dissolving my thought-process

And I’ve started wondering if my problem even are problems

You stopped me from leaving my body hanging on a string

Strangled and deceased slain in-between angels and demons

Our desires, what a tangled web we weave

Live for yourself and what a painful death you’ll see

So I continually use you, I’m assembling excuses

Seeking answers is tempting; the penalty is confusion

Empty and use me I ask of you

I know it’s melodramatic but life is done the minute rap is through

You ain’t going anywhere I told you to sit

This isn’t me throwing a fit, no, you know what it is

My face has cold blooded killer written all over and my pen has

Spoken to children choking their image in a mirror

I know you’re frustrated, I keep distancing me

I’ll take my own advice [LIFE] eventually

You give me way too much credit, you expect you’re protected

Accept I’m reckless and you’re the object of my affection; obsession

Whos to blame for staying in this relationship

We’re just a mix of hatred, impatience, nature, and negligence

Anyone can be appealing for an evening

That’s called infatuation; feelings can be misleading

Do you a favor and kill me and be deceiving

Vow me diseased is a secret that you’ll be keeping

I swear to God and Muhammad too much is not enough

Devoted to being someone you’ll never get to the bottom of

Life has one choice – are you going to give or take

Make money, take everything and death will take it away