[Intro]
My heart is aching plenty
My life I made is empty
Ending my fate is tempting
Why am I so alone
[Verse 1]
Am I just meant to be walkin' down this road
Am I really meant to be sittin' all alone
Lookin' left and right, all I see is empty seats
I avoid my reflection, I despise what I see
Have you ever felt disgusted when you look into a mirror
Feel like everywhere I go, everybody try'na glare
Everything I wanna say, don't nobody wanna hear
And my body may be present but my mind ain't even here
No, nobody wants to be with me
But why would someone even want me when I'm not who I should be
They told me crying makes you weak, they painted me a freak
Why can't I just be me and be myself cause I'm unique
Damn, is this the life I'm making
I'm tired of livin' as a fake me
I need help but ain't nobody here to save me
And deep down everybody really hates me
[Chorus]
My heart is aching plenty
My life I made is empty
Ending my fate is tempting
Why am I so alone
My heart never stops aching
Feel like everyone hates me
Nobody's here to save me
Why am I so alone
[Verse 2]
In the bathroom during lunch sittin' all alone
And all the group projects I did 'em on my own
Sleepin' durin' class, teachers always mad at me
But the midnight grind is taxin', so today I'm havin' dreams
It's hard to get recruited when you ain't bringin' that coin in
You can say my dreams are dumb but I got heart like Earl Boykins
Does getting hopes up only lead to disappointment
Everywhere I go I feel so hated, can't avoid it
Grew up in the city, people shootin' one another
Why can't we stick together we all supposed to be brothers
The rich get richer while the poor just suffer
I don't know my real father and out went my mother
Is it my fault that I've never had a lover
And is it my fault my autism makes me stutter
I tried to make friends but ain't nobody wanna hang
So maybe the only way out is a *click, click* bang
[Chorus]
My heart is aching plenty
My life I made is empty
Ending my fate is tempting
Why am I so alone
My heart never stops aching
Feel like everyone hates me
Nobody's here to save me
Why am I so alone
[Interlude]
My heart is aching plenty
Why am I so alone?
[Chorus]
My heart is aching plenty
My life I made is empty
Ending my fate is tempting
Why am I so alone
My heart never stops aching
Feel like everyone hates me
Nobody's here to save me
Why am I so alone
[Outro]
And I stand alone
Tell me all this shit I just can't atone
These monsters have grown
They won't leave me alone