[Verse 1]

Two days since “final” and the silence is loud

House feel empty but my thoughts still feeling crowded

Phone rang, “I’m pregnant”, six months hit me like stone

Now I’m sittin’ in the dark, tryna figure this alone

I had rings picked out, dress in my mind, private spot by the sea

Promised her forever, now forever just means me plus responsibility

Chest been tight since she said “we done, don’t call me bae”

But there’s a child in the middle and I can’t just walk away

So I’m choosin’ logic over longing, facts over feelings

Sеventeenth August Sona, that’s the only thing I’m dealin’

I won’t sеnd cash blind, won’t play house in the store

I’ll pay the clinic direct, receipts on the floor

Love don’t mean I chase, love means I do what’s right

Even when it hurt, even in the middle of the night

I'm sorry that I ever made you cry

I didn't do things thats right

Ohkay fine

But I guess it's goodbye

I tried, I lied, didn't do things fitted for what you wanted in life

Over at my house for you I cried, I admit it

I'm flawed, scared tourned apart

But you still got my heart

This is the best part

We laughed, we cried

We smiled, we broke up and got back together and we tried

Good memories of our best time

That's in the past life

That's right

In the past life

[Chorus]

Dark clouds over my head, but I won’t drown in rain

I detach from the past, I won’t die in the pain

I’m the father, I’ll show up, i change the diapers, but won't pay a fee

I’m not done, I'm not dumb, I let go but I will keep my dignity

The Dark clouds, yeah, but I’m learnin’ how to see

Peace ain’t in her arms,the peace is in me

[Verse 2]

She text “clinic location”, eleven minutes she took

I kept my reply short, no games, no bait, no hook

“Send me the address” that’s all, no “how you feelin’?”

No “remember when we", I’m on co-parent, not reelin’

I wanted marriage bad, pictured her in white, vows whispered low

Wanted to be the man who never let her go

But “final” was final, words cut deeper than the knife

And I can’t beg a woman back while she carryin’ new life

So I’m breathin’ through the urge, three sips water, chest check too

Detached two weeks before she did, now I’m followin’ through

No shopping dates, no “us” talks in baby aisles

That’s couple energy, and that’ll set me back miles

If Sona says I’m dad, then I’m all in, no half

Bills, birth, school runs, I’ll take the long path

If Sona says I’m not, then I mourn and I move clean

Either way I won’t lose myself tryna live a broken dream

[Chorus]

Dark clouds over my head, but I won’t drown in rain

I detach from the past, I won’t die in the pain

If I’m the father, I’ll show up, I'll change the

Diapers, but pay the fee

If I’m not, I let go, but I keep my dignity

Dark clouds, yeah, but I’m learnin’ how to see

Peace ain’t in her arms, peace is in me

So I wait, I pray, I breathe, I stand tall

Seventeenth August will tell me if I run or if I fall

Dark clouds pass, sun gon’ break through the grey

I’m not her man again, but I’m a man every day