BLEH. - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I keep my eyes open some hours a day

To stare at a screen or the ceiling

I try to save face with myself

So i tell me i'm biding my time 'til i'm better

When i know i'm in a decline

And i've noticed i've grown a bit a guarded

I used to be vulnerable let people in

My head and my heart both have hardened

I'd like to reverse that but where to begin

I need some advicе

'Cause i'm feelin' less n less mysеlf these days

I'm feelin' like a mess

I may need to embrace some change

I've tried a vice or two or three or more

And all washed me up on too familiar shores

Because escapism is just so alluring

And i'm comfy when my mind is snoring

I'm feelin' like bleh

Physiognomy dash underscore dash

The embodiment of excrement

I'm feelin' like a pile o' trash

So what do you do when you feel like doo doo

When you feel a mile deep down in the dumps

Do you eat all your feelings or drink 'til ya got none

Or take up a hobby or what

'Cause I need some tips

I'm feelin' less n less myself these days

I'm feelin' like a mess

I may need to embrace some change

Lord knows i've tried meditation and self-medication

But both make me anxious and too self aware

I just want the code to self-actualization

I just wanna know that i still even care