Billy Killer

By Jean Grae

On Jeanius

Released on July 2008

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[Hook]

Each morning, my man goes downtown

Where everyone falls, and he's lost

In an angry land, he's a little man


[Verse 1]

9 A.M., eyeing him

My eyes widening

Feeling like it's Groundhog Day, he gotta try again

Riptide tide with thoughts of retiring

Pride flies and he wired me some truth and inspirement

So I can't fail him

He gets the mail and he's off

Like a movie trailer with those long roads and it costs

I wish you could retain the way he's losing his patience

Fucking transit, travel constantly, the fame motivation

Check cashing day, knowing my face on the spot

The bank teller should embrace him when he talks in slots

And not a day of rest, he walks twenty blocks

And brings me what the villain's got

A little money, little presents I could kill 'em rock

Ready stalking with them, having dark visions of choking [censored]

And fuck [censored], but of course it's his job

And he can't understand why I worry so much

Because he's my man, damn


[Hook]


[Verse 2]

He's busting his ass like figure skaters falling

Discussing the past label problems, [censored] calling him

It's my drama he's falling in; my momma, she stalling him

He's running out the door and she's saying, "Go to the store," and then

He's rushing out on no food

I feel him getting close to postal

Getting robbed by a nigga for ProTools

And he won't tell me about [censored] in Tennessee

I swear that nigga's dead -- I could picture the funeral, B

Hollering like soon he'll be picking jewelry

I be like, if I was you, I'd be excluding me

He won't go; he smokes, though, just to get by

They fuck up his high with phone calls

I swear to God, I wish he'd snap

Run up in [censored], stab [censored] in the back

And flip the table over, take his wallet, kick his throat in

And leave the knife attached to a note, smoking


[Hook]


[Verse 3]

Man, fuck [censored] and [censored] and [censored]

Colin ran around for a month and niggas ain't calling

I hate him going to these meetings, trying to explain

Why Jean is the next thing; I fiend for the ending

I scream when he's leaving, man, I hate them

He doesn't write no more; drawings, he doesn't make them

Pause, we the relation; calls heeded, forsaken

All Colin's creative; Lord, how does he make it?

Naw, I couldn't, maybe, cause Jean's not as good at

Bottling up feelings, feeling all positive when I shouldn't

I'm going with him, bringing some basement to it

In the ass, find a nice place to place my foot in

But he paces my footing, tries to place the good in

Keeps the paper chase going, no complaints

Why shouldn't I worry that what good am I?

Damn, I'll love the man til I die, c'mon


[Hook]