Dying Inside

By JayteKz

On INNOCENCE

Released on March 9, 2018

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[Verse 1: JayteKz]

I got these dark thoughts, clogging up my fucking brain

Might grab a blade and let it puncture through my fucking veins

Watch the blood drip, and let myself die slow

And when you find my body, make sure that my eyes closed

And this is me, this is how I truly fucking feel

So, when you look me in my eyes, just know the pain is real

I've been through things that I won't never probably heal from

Stuck in my dreams, cause when I sleep is when I feel numb

I've never thought my life would turn into a nightmare

I fight my demons, but they never fucking fight fair

If you only knew the half of what the fuck I face

I try to move forward but it's like I'm stuck in place

No matter what, It's like the devil is chillin' on my shoulders

Everyday is getting darker, nights are getting colder

Barely sober just so I can leave reality

But, when the high wears off, depression just recaptures me


[Chorus]

Take a look into my eyes?

Can you tell me what you see?

I've been empty, dead inside

Take me out of my misery

Can you listen to my heart?

Can you tell me if it beats?

Can you see all of my scars?

Every single wound that is hit in deep


[Verse 2: JayteKz]

And I don't want to be alive no more

And I can't bear this pain, these tears I can hide no more

And I don't feel the love, no I don't feel the love at all

And nothing feels real, my life is just a big facade

I wish that I can change, I wish that I can smile again

I wish I could explain this hell which I'm drowning in

I'm sinking fast and I can feel my soul burn to ashes

Don't hold my hands when It's time for you to close my casket

Let me go, let me rest in peace and finally heal

And let my story represent the pain I once concealed

I gave it all I have but somethings just aren't meant to be

I tried to tell you that my time will come eventually

No matter what, just know I'm thankful for the life I had

I'm thankful for the memories and all the empty laughs

Forever sad, my Innocence will be forever gone

So long, I won't be breathing by the crack of dawn


[Chorus]

Take a look into my eyes?

Can you tell me what you see?

I've been empty, dead inside

Take me out of my misery

Can you listen to my heart?

Can you tell me if it beats?

Can you see all of my scars?

Every single wound that is hit in deep