Chasing Ghosts

By JayteKz

Released on July 1, 2020

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I think about the times that we spent together

Every moment that we shared felt like it last forever

Was so caught up in your presence and the past was severed

You’re a blessing sent from heaven, you’re my greatest treasure

It’s so hard for me to grasp you’re no longer here

My entire world collapsed and it drowned in tears

All I feel is fear now from you moving on

The only comfort that I have here is this stupid song

So I write about my pain and my broken heart

Take a trip down memory lane in a stolen car

Hoping I get far enough to relive what we were

Hoping it lasts long enough before it’s all a blur

Now I’m slurring out my words cause I’m fucking drunk

Deeply immersed in all my sorrows like a ship that sunk

Can’t escape this funk no matter how hard I try

So I drink until I’m slumped and feel the pain subside

But when I wake up and I realize you’re still absent

Feels like we break up all over, constant reenactments

Caught in my entrapments always getting fucking high

Knowing when I come down the pain is multiplied

I just hope to find myself again cause I been lost

Ever since you left my life half my heart dissolved

I’m exhausted chasing ghosts from my broken past

Time to balance out these lows with this hopeless glass

You stole a part of me

When you left my side

My heart can hardly beat

Part of me has died

I’m walking down a path

That does not exist

Regretful of my past

So I reminisce

Once upon a time

I thought that you were mine

I lost myself in you and

Now I cannot find

The person I once knew

Before you and I met

There’s nothing I can do now

I wish I could forget

Once upon a time

You stole a part of me

I lost myself in you and

My heart can hardly beat

The person I once knew

I’m walking down a path

There’s nothing I can do

So I reminisce

It’s like I love you and I hate you I just can’t decide

You caused me so much pain but still, you made me feel alive

My heart is filled with pride, bitterness, and anger now

You were the closest to me how the fuck we strangers now

I meant to make you proud, I never meant to make you leave

And now I’m plagued with all these doubts like was this make-believe

Cause I just can’t perceive the fact that maybe you deceived

All the trust, love and promises i once received

And now I question what I’m worth if anything at all

I keep these memories preserved that’s why the wound is raw

I know it’s all my fault cause I refuse to let you go

I had you planted in my heart and I was watching you grow

Now I must let you die

In the world of my mind

I must turn the next page

Leave the chapter behind

This disaster declined my happiness and my joy

I just pray within time, God will help heal the void

You stole a part of me

When you left my side

My heart can hardly beat

Part of me has died

I’m walking down a path

That does not exist

Regretful of my past

So I reminisce

Once upon a time

I thought that you were mine

I lost myself in you and

Now I cannot find

The person I once knew

Before you and I met

There’s nothing I can do now

I wish I could forget

Once upon a time

You stole a part of me

I lost myself in you and

My heart can hardly beat

The person I once knew

I’m walking down a path

There’s nothing I can do

So I reminisce