Sinking Deeper

By Jay Young

On The Architect EP

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[Intro]

Yeah. This song is dedicated to those who are living a Hell everyday, without a voice, without anybody to lean on. I'm here for you


[Verse 1]

Waking up in the morning, it's another day

Im up stretching and yawning, mind is half awake

Time to get ready for school, but I don't want to go

Because there's nothing there for me besides pain and jokes

No girl, no friends, this ain't a happy story

This is the life that I'm living, no one can tell it for me

Getting picked on every day, the teachers never see

I'm begging to the sky to send someone to help me

Cuz I can't take it anymore, I'm at the end

I'm starting to have suicidal thoughts in my head

All I want is a reprieve from this madness

A little break from reality before it starts again

There's the bell, time to start my journey home

As always, I'm making this trip alone

I know that they're waiting for me on the outside

Here's a toast to another unfair fight


[Verse 2]

Got home, bruised up with a busted lip

My eye is swelling to the point I can't see through it

I can hear yelling coming from the inside

I'm pretty sure Dad is on another whisky high

Scared to find Mom curled up in a bloody mess

Or something worse, I know that he's been getting to it

Walked right in, made a beeline straight towards my room

Shut the door and locked it before I heard a "BOOM!"

Now that Dad's gone, time to do some laundry

These clothes are the only things I have on me

Went to the next floor and I set the machine

Before coming back and starting on my AP

An hour later, I go back to retrieve my things

And find my clothes missing, the work of thieves

I'll find my shredded clothes in the trash within a week

And hear the laughter of the kids in apartment 3


[Bridge]

Take me, hold me, press me against your skin

Feel my relief as I slide on you unhinged

Come trade your pain for my sweet release

I'm your only real friend, you can rely on me

My sharp tongue will show you pleasures for your relief

Yes, it feels good, don't you see?

Come relay, tell me about your tale of sorrow

If we don't have enough time, we'll go tomorrow


[Verse 3]

Nobody in this world could give a lick about me

What's the point of living life if my soul is dying?

Bullied everywhere, there's no haven for me

There's never any peace, only hate unfolding

Better to just end it now and be done with it

It's not like anybody close would really give a shit

Beaten by my Dad, Mom is never doing nothing

I wish that she would have the courage to stand up for something

But it never shows, blow after blow

I'm left to fend for myself against this cold

That's the way it goes, school and broken nose

The teachers never see, the punches being thrown

Why can't I be alone? Why can't I just go home?

Why is it kids like me, have to perish unknown?

Until my suicide why does no one else care?

Everyone's on the wagon to say a prayer