Thunder Perfect Mind

By Jarboe

On The End

Released on 2006

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I was sent forth from the power

And I have come to those who reflect upon me

And I have been found among those who seek after me

Look upon me you who reflect upon me

And you hearers hear me

You who are waiting for me take me to yourselves

And do not banish me from your sight

And do not make your voice hate me nor your hearing

Do not be ignorant of me anywhere or any time

Be on your guard

Do not be ignorant of me

For I am the first and thе last

I am the honoured one and thе scorned one

I am the whore and the holy one

I am the wife and the virgin

I am the mother and the daughter

I am the members of my mother

I am the barren one and many are her sons

I am she whose wedding is great

And I have not taken a husband

I am the midwife and she who does not bear

I am the solace of my labour pains

I am the bride and the bridegroom

And it is my husband who begot me

I am the mother of my father and the sister of my husband

And he is my offspring

I am the slave of him who prepared me

I am the ruler of my offspring

But he is the one who begot me before the time on a birthday

And he is my offspring in due time

And my power is from him

I am the staff of his power in his youth

And he is the rod of my old age

And whatever he wills happens to me

I am the silence that is incomprehensible

And the idea whose remembrance is frequent

I am the voice whose sound is manifold

And the word whose appearance is multiple

I am the utterance of my name

Why you who hate me do you love me

And hate those who love me

You who deny me confess me

And you who confess me deny me

You who tell the truth about me lie about me

And you who have lied about me tell the truth about me

You who know me be ignorant of me

And those who have not known me let them know me

For I am knowledge and ignorance

I am shame and boldness

I am shameless I am ashamed

I am strength and I am fear

I am war and peace

Give heed to me

I am the one who is disgraced and the great one

Give heed to my poverty and my wealth

Do not be arrogant to me when I am cast out upon the earth

And you will find me in those that are to come

And do not look upon me on the dung heap

Nor go and leave me cast out

And you will find me in the kingdoms

And do not look upon me when I am cast out among those who are disgraced and in the least places

Nor laugh at me

And do not cast me out among those who are slain in violence

But I, I am compassionate and I am cruel

Be on your guard

Do not hate my obedience and do not love my self-control

In my weakness do not forsake me

And do not be afraid of my power

For why do you despise my fear and curse my pride

But I am she who exists in all fears and strength in trembling

I am she who is weak and I am well in a pleasant place

I am senseless and I am wise

Why have you hated me in your counsels

For I shall be silent among those who are silent

And I shall appear and speak

Why then have you hated me you Greeks

Because I am a barbarian among the barbarians?

For I am the wisdom of the Greeks

And the knowledge of the barbarians

I am the judgment of the Greeks and of the barbarians

I am the one whose image is great in Egypt

And the one who has no image among the barbarians

I am the one who has been hated everywhere

And who has been loved everywhere

I am the one whom they call Life

And you have called Death

I am the one whom they call Law

And you have called Lawlessness

I am the one whom you have pursued

I am the one whom you have seaced

I am the one whom you have scattered

And you have gathered me together

I am the one before whom you have been ashamed

And you have been shameless to me

I am she who does not keep festival

And I am she whose festivals are many

I, I am godless and I am the one whose God is great

I am the one whom you have reflected upon

And you have scorned me

I am unlearned and they learn from me

I am the one that you have despised and you reflect upon me

I am the one whom you have hidden from and you appear to me

But whenever you hide yourselves I myself will appear

For whenever you appear I myself will hide from you

Those who have to it senselessly

Take me understand me from grief

And take me to yourselves from understanding and grief

And take me to yourselves from places that are ugly and in ruin

And rob from those which are good even though in ugliness

Out of shame take me to yourselves shamelessly

And out of shamelessness and shame

Upbraid my members in yourselves

And come forward to me you who know me

And you who know my members

And establish the great ones among the small first creatures

Come forward to childhood

And do not despise it because it is small and it is little

And do not turn away greatnesses in some parts from the smallnesses

For the smallnesses are known from the greatnesses

Why do you curse me and honor me

You have wounded and you have had mercy

Do not separate me from the first ones whom you have known

And do not cast anyone out nor turn anyone away

I know the first ones and those after them know me

But I am the mind of and the rest of

I am the knowledge of my inquiry

And the finding of those who seek after me

And the command of those who ask of me

And the power of the powers in my knowledge of the angels who have been sent at my word and of Gods in their seasons by my counsel

And of spirits of every man who exists with me

And of women who dwell within me

I am the one who is honoured and who is praised

And who is despised scornfully

I am peace and war has come because of me

And I am an alien and a citizen

I am the substance and the one who has no substance

Those who are without association with me are ignorant of me

And those who are in my substance are the ones who know me

Those who are close to me have been ignorant of me

And those who are far away from me are the ones who have known me

On the day when I am close to you you are far away from me

And on the day when I am far away from you I am close to you

I am control and the uncontrollable

I am the union and the dissolution

I am the abiding and I am the dissolution

I am the one below and they come up to me

I am the judgment and the acquittal

I, I am sinless and the root of sin derives from me

I am lust in our appearance and interior self-control exists within me

I am the hearing which is attainable to everyone

And the speech which cannot be grasped

I am the mute who does not speak and great is my multitude of words

Hear me in gentleness and learn of me in roughness

I am she who cries out and I am cast forth upon the face of the earth

I prepare the bread and my mind within

I am the knowledge of my name

I am the one who cries out and I listen

I am the one who is called Truth

You honour me and you whisper against me

You who are vanquished judge them and vanquish you

Before they give judgment against you

Because the judge and partiality exist in you

If you are condemned by this one who will acquit you

Or if you are acquitted by him who will be able to detain you

For what is inside of you is what is outside of you

And the one who fashions you on the outside

Is the one who shaped the inside of you

And what you see outside of you you see inside of you

It is visible and it is your garment

Hear me you hearers and learn of my words you who know me

I am the hearing that is attainable to everything

I am the speech that cannot be grasped

I am the name of the sound and the sound of the name

I am the sign of the letter and the designation of the division

And I will speak his name

Look then at his words and all the writings which have been completed

Give heed then you hearers and you also the angels

And those who have been sent

And you spirits who have arisen from the dead

For I am the one who alone exists

And I have no one who will judge me

For many are the pleasant forms which exist in numerous sins

And incontinencies and disgraceful passions and fleeting pleasures

Which embrace until they become sober and go up to their resting place

And they will find me there

And they will live

And they will not die again