[Verse 1: J Lite]
Working two jobs, can't make time for my hobby
Going through the motions got me living like a zombie
It's obvi-us, you and me, we adjust
Living in a world of lies held together with trust
It seems like I need to find a sense of direction
It could find me, time is winding, my attention
Spans shorter with nothing in order, glass I'm inspectin'
Looking for reason through, pieces and see my reflection
Every section, a shard
Of imperfection, it's hard
To learn a lesson, I've been dancin'-around the question and my guard
Is down
Beat everything out of me to the sound
Breathe steadily and I've found
The drive to survive, so I'm bound
To conquer myself, I don't need wealth or a crown
I've been keeping my chin up too high to look down
Dirt will pile up, but I'm stepping up to the mound
And I know to get up, I gotta be on the ground
[Hook: J Lite]
Just trying to pick myself up
I'm all in, hope they don't call my bluff
But I know I'm up on my luck
And so I hope it's more than enough
[Verse 2: J Lite]
Don't get me started on my problems I have a bunch
Wish I could end them all, in just one punch
Man, lunch at the table, thought-about-my life, is it stable?
Will I give my wife and kids a fairy-tale or a fable?
Am I able? I got a lot of time until April
But-I-know no matter what I'll be smiling down at the cradle
Watching em grow, you know it's better than cable
And when they watch me, I hope I make a good portrayal
Living with responsibility
It's taking its toll, I'm losing control
Honestly, it's killing me and my soul
I'm trying to move away from anything I pretend to be
'Cause no longer do I wanna live my days in dependency
I got a tendency on occasion to sip Hennessy
'Cause it seems like it's been the only friend to me
"You're gonna be great" is all that they've been telling me
But it's hard to believe when you compare the discrepancies
[Hook]
[Verse 3: J Lite]
Me and my enemy are saying the same thing
I know it's true, I won't move if I keep escaping
We are one in the same, I'm scared to go if you make me
But if I get up, where will it take me?
I'm aching
Deeper than my bones, I've been breaking
Worse than the feelings that we're always faking
It seems that all I have is yours for the taking
Just 'cause I'm doing nothing but waiting
I guess it's time for me to go off script
I hope I find someone or something to run off with
Get in the whip and drive it, no bondage
I'm no longer gonna hold myself hostage
Talking to myself is all I ever do
Guiding my well-being with constant walk-throughs
But now I know what I finally have to do
So I chase my happily ever after, you