Difficult to understand why I really overdosed

Currently, don’t have all the reasons but i’m coming close

Felt so much uncertainty, couldn’t get away from it

Demons here eternally, everyday I hated it

I told the doctors that it wasn’t out of suicide

Wanted to escape the pain that made me scarred and traumatized

All of the rejection from wanting your attention

I just wanted someone in my life I could connect with

All my imperfections gave me a perception

I had to be perfect every day and every second

I became obsessed with results and achievements

When they weren’t possessed I would have some disagreements

I was always worried how the people would perceive me

Look into the mirror just to see if I was breathing

Plenty blemishes and imperfections in my life

They would keep me up at night, it’s when I said alright

Mentally I was going insane

Everyday life was a hurricane

Comfort came when I self medicated

Substances would take away the pain

Another reason why is i’m addicted to attention

Craving validation cause I had so many questions

People couldn’t answer anxiety’s a cancer

Eats away coherence turns your mind to a disaster

Really put a purpose on impressing individuals

Didn’t even care that all my methods were so cynical

Wanted the respect of friends in person on the internet

I would try to gain it quick by giving into their demands

Caught up in the bad lands didn’t have a comrade

Me myself and I beside my demons it was unplanned

Didn’t care what anybody thought at the time

I just needed reconfiguration of my mind

And I needed to evade and run away from everything

I really thought the drugs would give me all the better things

A sense of euphoria, permanent elation

It was temporary I continued medicating went to

Mentally I was going insane

Everyday life was a hurricane

Comfort came when I self medicated

Substances would take away the pain

Now I have the coping mechanisms use em everyday

Talking to my doctors and they’re listening to what I say

I don’t trust myself with isolation and depression

So I talk to someone and that person is a blessing

Now I have the coping mechanisms use em every night

Taking my Effexors and they really make me feel alright

I don’t feel the pressure and the mental pain I used to

Really overcame it all I tightened up the loose screw

Mentally I was going insane

Everyday life was a hurricane

Comfort came when I self medicated

Substances would take away the pain