Growth

By Jake Darus

Released on January 31, 2020

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So we really did it! Unbelievable

Of course I had to hit up my guy

(This Producer Franky Wahoo)

For the Outro

I woke up today and I was ready to explode

Had so much to say I had a raging episode

Circumstances, brought all the adversity

Missing my alarm I ran across the university

Really knew today that I would get my diagnosis

Come up with a treatment plan to give me all the hope but

I was too late, hold myself accountable

Storming out the office I had too many emotions

As I was outside friends were tellin’ me to breathe

I still I got a session in to put my mind at ease

Walked back in, scared cause I didn’t know

How it was gonna go but I knew I had control

I been facin’ all my fears and never skipping therapy

Mentally, life is clear, now we got prosperity

Used to be a pessimist, now i’ll be an optimist

Watch the flower blossom from the bottom of the bottomless

Pit of zero confidence, pit of zero competence

Poppin’ Percs to feel emotions now I feel ‘em naturally

Proving to myself that the Effexor ain’t effective

Numbing every feeling eventually losing sanity

Went cold turkey, nothing’s gonna hurt me

Pain from lack of serotonin‘s why i’m on the journey

I was off the meds for everyday I put the flows too

All the instrumentals now i’m so happy to show you

That I really am

I’m growing as a man and god damn

It feels so good to validate the truth

To show you i’m growing inside the booth

(Growth outside the booth)

Out my head and out my bed, living in the moment

People really said to me that everybody’s noticed

How far that I’ve came since I hit rock bottom

Only celebrating every time I hit the bottle

Can’t be depressed and isolated

Can’t be depressed self medicatin’

So i’m obsessed with dedication

Showing you i’m blessed and an inspiration

Less and less records will be

Twenty four seven all about me

I just had to make it cause I was doubting me

Capabilities and I really could not see

Progression and the lessons that I passionately learned

Now i’m seeing blessings in my presence that I earned

Soon i’m turning twenty saying bye to adolescence

Yes I got your message now it’s my impression

That I really am

I’m growing as a man and god damn

It feels so good to validate the truth

To show you i’m growing inside the booth

(Growth outside the booth)

Yeah

Finally! The Album has came to a close!

And I just want to thank everybody who was a part of it

Everybody from the people inside of the sessions giving me constructive criticism

To the people outside of the sessions helping me grow as a person for the past year

Specifically I want to shout out Katie Abrahamowicz, David Oblinger, my therapist Dawn up north in Cleveland

All three of you guys!

I give you all the credit in the world for helping me grow as a person

(This producer Franky Wahoo)

Shout out to my psychiatrist and shout out to my neurologist for continuing to believe in me

Shout out to my family my immediate and extended family I love you all to death!

And we really made an album that nobody can take away from me

And there's nobody can take away this incredible accomplishment