Steering Wheel - Intellectual

I wish that we could all pretend December never happened

But people don't forget

I'll use it as a reminder to never let myself get that bad again

With my head against the steering wheel

Fucked beyond belief

With everything I know and love

Crashing down around me

Lies caving in

Every day when I wake up

I want to crawl out of my skin

But my past keeps reminding me that that's just not an option

My coping mechanisms are outdated

And they left me the way I am today

You always said that I would run

When shit got tough

I hate the coward I've become

I hate the things I've done

But I'll keep reminding myself when the days are long

It's not forever

You lied to me

I lied to you

So I don't get your bullshit claims

What makes you, what makes you so special

That makes me the only one to blame

What makes you so special?