[Verse 1]
Wanna make it to the top, right now I ain't 'bout that fame
I wanna stay so picture perfect, so my problems are out of frame
Follow all my dreams man? It's a must do, not a might boy!
But it's so damn hard, when your brain creates nothin' but white noise
That's coming from your insecurities, all your demons and emotions!
Leavin' you feeling so sick, like you OD'd on alcoholic potions!
I care not for the fame right now, but I hope that eventually
Me and family will get right up to the top like the Kennedy's!
But I know that deep down, that success brings envy
From others around you, and a thousand potential enemies
I'd like to think that with my music, I'll go through life and come through ill
But there'll be one person that'll open their arms at me and shoot to kill
Also, it'll be likely, that I'll get no privacy
Swarmed by leeches and beggars, unless I'm movin' quietly
Buildin' stress upon my brain, slowly makin' me insane
And that's not even counting personal issues bein' such a pain!
[Hook]
I feel like I'm drowning
With all these problems in my mind
I swear, one day, I'll snap
I think someday I'll find
All these thoughts are clouding
Up my head space. I need to get out
Before I get trapped
I should have a look around
[Verse 2]
Don't know how I can manage, all of this mental damage
I know damn well that's sounds dramatic, but these thoughts are problematic
I fear for that sad end, wonderin' if I'm a bad friend
To the people close to me, after all their years of knowing me
Maybe I'm just insecure, 'cause my heart's in this so pure
But I can't help but get the feeling, with these thoughts that I'm concealing
That my time is worthless, nothing in my life is certain
And with my family surrounding me, I just hope they're all proud of me
Hope I'm not bein' an annoyance, don't wanna end up a disappointment
In the eyes of my family, that scenario will be a tragedy
If not music, what's my purpose?! Every day feels like a circle!
Every day that I don't rap, feels like agony! Man, I might snap!
Tryin' to live without a care, under the surface, gasping for air!
All these words leaving my tongue, while these waters fill my lungs!
See, all those thoughts I spew out when I concentrate
All this baggage on my chest, I feel that I may suffocate!