[Verse 1]

Penning letters to myself to keep me sane

War-torn spaces in the landscape of my brain

How can anyone survive this pain?

My soul fading, but the trauma remains

My bowl empty of the fruits of the Lord

These days, can we ever be so sure?

What's to do once we finish here?

Washing off my blood 'til the water runs clear

[Verse 2]

It takes a village to break down a man's spirit

No one ever stops to consider how I'm feeling

But Josh the one who's selfish, right?

Because he thought that he should have a say in his life

They don't know it's been killing me

They don't know I'm my own worst enemy

They don't know, they don't ask

But it's still my fault and my bad

Kneeling at the temple steps, I feel nothing

Trouble behind closed doors, I feel nothing

Sunrays on the leaves, I feel nothing

Can't recall the last time I didn't feel nothing

I'm about to flee my country

And wash up on the shores of a land where I'm wanted

I'm getting pretty tired of running from all the pressures

Of the expectations they put on me

My yolk is heavy, and my burden is too

Turn the wrench faster 'til I'm burning a screw

Don't get it twisted, my perspective is blue

Waiting 'til I fade away or play on the news

God save me 'cause I'm thrashing, I'm drowning

I'm choking, I'm counting

The minutes I have on my clock to expire

It's dire, it's dire

I'm ire, perspire

They set me on fire

[Bridge]

I can't believe

That you don't see

What you do to me

I'm hurting, oh no

I'm hurting, oh no

I'm hurting mama

Mm, mm

Mm, mm

[Verse 3]

Time ticks faster and my soul still yearning

Finding solace in the lessons I've been learning

Finding peace in knowing that nothing matters

So if I lose it all, I'm still gone in the end

Castles in the sand, they'll be gone with the wind

In the meantime, I'll be off it again

Try to fill the void and I know what it is

I done ran so far, such a long way from Him

[Outro]

Thought I found my purpose

I thought the toil was worth it

I thought I was perfect

I'm so wrong, I'm so wrong

I'm so wrong, I'm so wrong

It's been long, been so long

I write these songs so that you know

My mind is gone, it's so gone