many moons

By j. sula

On Pretty

Released on January 30, 2019

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​many moons


[Verse 1]

I feel the pressure of these lessons pressing down on me

I can't lift it, I can't stand up, I can hardly breathe

I try to run away but stumble on my wobbly knees

I wonder if my life is mine or just a prophecy

I wonder if my life is minor or it matters to somebody

Anybody, but I get it if it's only me

I look at the sky and wonder if I made it up

On another planet, would I still be cursed with Parker luck?

I got some blessings on the way, at least I hope I do

I take the path of least resistance like I'm supposed to do

I do not question or debate or give suggestion, no

I hardly speak my mind but my words are a weapon, though

I cannot fathom leading my own people out of Egypt

When I can't lead myself to God just when I really need Him

Hope when I lie in the grave, I'm not still keeping secrets

I spit on the past, good riddance and rest in pieces


[Bridge]

Good riddance and rest in pieces

Hope I'm not still keeping secrets

Lead myself to God when I really need Him

Take the lead and march my people out of Egypt


[Verse 2]

Let me take it back, y'all back to the winter

Time was fleeting in the season of the snowstorms

And the sinner wasn't strong in me, just bubbling

Under cover of darkness, it's troubling

Feeling lonely, would I ever recover, I'm wondering

I see the swirls of wind, they pick up and carry me forward

The Author's writing up my story, how'd He write the foreword?

Blizzard's blinding me, but I gotta keep looking northward

It's a close game, but I'm losing on the scoreboard


[Bridge: j. sula + Mom]

Many moons, many moons

Many moons, many moons

Many moons, many moons

Many moons, many moons


[Verse 3]

Mm, get up off my back with

Get up off my back with, all of that crapping talking

Toss it like Caesar salad, off on my PH balance

I'm ducking the calls, I'm seeing mirages

I haven't used all my talents, hop off like frogs, ya dig

I'm needing all of it

If I do not save up my energy, use it for better things

Work for that wedding ring, my eyes are gonna sting

Struck by a hornet, I promise you're really important

But this is my life and you can't be my wife

If I haven't found love in myself too

'Cause my self esteem is a whole mood

I'm down on my luck as I told you

I'm losing my friends, not on them, but I'm working things out

And they saying "You cold, dude"

I'm tired of hearing this old news

I'm tired of hearing these lies from

The devil and all of his spies come

To tear me down, this isn't Jericho

The rainfall has got me hysterical

My dreams are too big for America

Hope it ain't too late for a miracle

I just hope I find happy before I go

I just hope I find happy before I go

​many suns


[Verse 1]

God been really patient with me, I been on my BS

Like 24/7 and He just been up to here with these reasons

To hold grudges on me, God just love me

When He should be shunning on me

Guess that's just what happens when Creator's your father

I swear I could take it farther if you wanna

Y'all ain't heard it yet, I spent too many moons

Many suns on worries I forget

Ain't no good regrets in this life, that's one thing that I'm learning

You gon' lose some good ass people as you flow on your journey

I know, and I can't see the future

But I get this feeling that it's gon' be business as usual

Yeah, I'm stuck down right now, but it'll pass

It always does, and I'm gon' laugh, I always do

'Cause my Father gon' see me through, yes Lord


[Verse 2]

Stressing, stressing, stressing, I be

Focused on my problem, not my blessings, I feel

I just gotta see through different lenses, maybe

The world do look pretty, but that's depending on me

Sun coming up quickly now, soul be feeling real pretty now

Friends all been real busy now

Even my little brother ain't rocking with me now

Wonder how life will be for me when I'm fifty now

I don't care about much like nowadays

I just wanna be fine, I lie and say that I'm fine

I feel my life isn't mine, I feel I'm losing my time

I feel that I feel too much, I feel that I'll just be stuck

I feel I'm down on my luck, for good


[Outro]

Sunsets at the venue

Moon's up in the sky

Sunsets at the venue

Moon's up in the sky