[Verse 1]

Wrote an essay on my depression

Got an F, then got detention

Teacher said they'll call my parents

They said I'm fishing for attention

The counsellor said that I can trust them

That they'll stay quiet with what I mention

I kept my mouth shut 'cause last time it opened

My ass got beat into the next dimension

[Verse 2]

Sat in silence and behaved

Bit my tongue

Sang their praise

Always followed

Played their game

Kissed their ass

And still no raise

Wanna quit

Flip my shit

Tеll my boss to suck a dick

Throw myself in front of a bus right before my nеxt shift

Fought the urge to set this dump on fire with everyone here still in it

[Chorus]

100 ways to die inside

I tried 'em all

Worn 'em with pride

Mascara streaks?

Oh, it's a choice

Though not one I got to make

I'm not the artist who's been holding the mace

An exhibit no one asked for, it never closes its gates

'Cause Death keeps spray painting my pretty canvas face

[Verse 3]

Roaches crawling up the walls

Rats crawling up the stairway

Mold is crawling through my lungs

Rent's been due since yesterday

It's tripled in a year, but I've got nowhere else to stay

Slumlord said he'd do some renos

Slapped on some new paint, called it a day

And then doubled my monthly rate

[Chorus]

100 ways to die inside

I tried 'em all

Worn 'em with pride

Mascara streaks?

Oh, it's a choice

Though not one I got to make

I'm not the artist who's been holding the mace

An exhibit no one asked for, it never closes its gates

'Cause Death keeps spray painting my pretty canvas face

[Verse 4]

Watched my childhood restaurant burn to the ground, while smokin' a blunt at 3 in the morning

Sent my landlord a long heartfelt text, that was meant to be for my ex-boyfriend

Didn't understand a new meme

Got barked at by a random teen

Got called a milf at 26

I don't even have kids

Another friend's no longer single

Another friend just fucking died

Didn't get asked to show ID because of the bags under my eyes

Bro who even says that to a person?

[Chorus]

100 ways to die inside

I tried 'em all

Worn 'em with pride

Mascara streaks?

Oh, it's a choice

Though not one I got to make

I'm not the artist who's been holding the mace

An exhibit no one asked for, it never closes its gates

'Cause Death keeps spray painting my pretty canvas face

[Verse 5]

Catcalled by some random creep

Flashed on the street by some random freak

Followed by the fourth guy this week

Before I even turned 13

Bullied for my 3XL tees

Sweatpants, hoodies, in 100 degrees

Got asked to show what's underneath

"I love girls who dress modestly”

[Verse 6]

A mother who went away for days

A step-deadbeat nine times my age

A dark basement

A few play dates

A touch that doesn't wash away

[Bridge]

Changed my face

Changed my name

Changed the story

Took the blame

Hid the truth

Hid my shame

Took the bullet

Hid the pain

I just obeyed

Did what they say

Cried alone

Every day

Watched my hope evaporate

Watched CPS as they walked away

I hid every ache

I swallowed every rage

Then got praised for being so mature for my age

[Breakdown]

[Chorus]

100 ways to die inside

I tried 'em all

Worn each one of 'em with pride

Took every single shot to my face in stride

While I was treading water, all I got was a fucking high five

And a pizza party when I asked for a break from life

I'm an exhibit no one asked for, and I'll never escape

'Cause Death keeps coming back to mace my pretty canvas face

[Outro]

100 ways to kill a soul

Trust me, I've tried 'em all

And the best one yet, is that I couldn't even fit 100 in this son-