[Hook]

If I could wish for something in my life, it would be more time

Maybe an hour or two, so that I could work out my lies

Every morning is colder

I hold it together though, right?

I just can’t seem to find the right ratio of me and my mind

[Verse 1]

Yeah, what is going on, what is happening?

Every time I open my mouth there’s nothing left in it

All my thoughts that should’ve been out circle back to me

And just stick on the walls of desperation, can I quit?

I keep playing with the question but still without an answer

I mean, yeah we got one

But what actually happens after it was done

I just hope we could ask them

Was the lesson lеarned

Or was it beautiful to have your last brеath?

Were fear the main drive of yours or was it regret?

Was it worth it or would still you come back?

If you could

Say your goodbyes to the people you’ve hurt

Those who you always forget

[HOOK]

If I could wish for something in my life, it would be more time

Maybe an hour or two, so that I could work out my lies

Every morning is colder

I hold it together though, right?

I just can’t seem to find the right ratio of me and my mind

If I could wish for something in my life, it would be true love

Not the one I feel when people blame me for messing them up

Maybe it’s time to move on

But I’m done if someone can’t open me up

Some people better alone, although I never thought I am one

[Verse 2]

I swear to God

Sometimes

I’d literally give my right arm for a question if I’m alright

And to not only appreciate it in hindsight

And why am I hiding it so ideally

That only a few times they get to see the real me

The things that I’m dealing with daily

Nothing can ease the pain, I’m so broken and deranged

Still that’s the level I maintain

Don’t ask me what’s lurkin’ inside my brain

Cause even I’m afraid of the thoughts that I have to retain

Before they see the light of day

That could easily be the end of me

Now tell me how can you rest like that

And lay back when you're so full of yourself

There’s just no place left to bury anything else

Cause everything’s packed with the past

The attic, the yard and the closet just bodies everywhere

I’m tryna hide them the best that I can

But man you just cannot tell

When you get the chance to have guests

And get out of your nest

That’s why I don’t want no one else

To find ‘em then end up in the pack

And yes, that is not in any way the way out

However I can’t do nothing ‘bout it as well

I’m in a state of silence, it’s Hyde who has the upper hand

I don’t get to decide no more, cause I can’t understand

Why I’m going up against myself

When united we just have every chance to make the best

Of our situation I guess, but I keep on falling down

My mind still bawling, while everyone else

Including my friends, expect me ballin’

I might as well just call it

Cause I’m done with it

Don’t want it, my sanity’s long departed

But somehow that’s the only way to do it

If you were ever to make it

The only thing that gives me hope is what mostly takes it

The same issues that I’ve been facin’

Continue to drive me crazy, I’m pacin’

Gazin’ into the future, but don’t see nothing amazin’

Though I’m blazing, cried out eyes still fighting to make it

The tears won't put out the fire rather ignite it

Piling all the sins of the world on myself to finally

Find something worthwhile to write down

Cause that’s how a motherf... an icon is made

As long as I am alive

I have every chance to achieve anything that I would like

And that includes ending my own life

Cause besides all those lies, I’m still me and that’s fine

I won’t hide from my demons no more

I tried keeping the outside tidy

While inside’s a catastrophe

Living for the trophies

Craving more of them after every hit

All those empty goals, dreams and hopes

Kept me numb but happy

At least that’s what I thought

Then I found out what it’s like to be broken and messed up

And guess what

I’d never change my time in hell for a life in good luck

I broke my legs a few times but I still walk

There are people that love me

There are people that I love