(Verse: ISMFC)

The first time I tried killing my self I was 15

I waited until my family went away for the weekend

And I was alone in the house and then I swallowed a bottle of pills

Shit I've broken a dust

Should've cut my wrist open as a kid mustn’t done it enough

Stuck in this rut to see a doctor I cannot be fucked

A cup of lean and I'm ready to chuck it cause my liver is done

Too many days spent drinking the rum

Faded off drugs taking into the puff

Off my face to the morn see a bit of the sun

Repeat the same shit every day like we think it's fun

Cocaine on the plate chopping bags of the buds

No pain on my face you could tell I was fucked

I felt drained in a state that I wanted to jump

I've spent days not amazed about the shit that I've done

I know it's difficult cunt panic attacks making me wanna jump under a bus

This shit's a headache I'm stuck I'm scared shit of my past

Lonely nights in a maze getting lost in a spark

Sober life with the drugs

Stick to writing these bars

Maybe that's around the corner playing games in my heart

I feel what does it fuck I fucked over my blood

Didn't know what to do didn't know from the start

Swear I'm stuck in the mud where's the love

Smoking baccy because cannot get buzzed bro

I'm over the drugs fucking opiate buzz

Fuck cunts now I'm ready to bust I got a plan

Demand the the price for the funds accidentally going spending on buzz

Practice my bars and pretend that they're hard

I got a fuck load of brothers that are stuck in the shard

I wanna help them but they're loving the past

I'm loving the grass got me caught in it they fucking coming in last

Smoking bongs fucking lost in the dark I've gone close

Stuck in a rut I don't know