Hard to fathom that everything has to happen

In order for us to grow and do better, the good the bad

And the everything in between, all the dreams that we could’ve had

If the picture was painted differently, hard to even imagine

If everything in this life were to flip, from good to bad

Or vice versa, give us the outcomes that we wish we always had

Would we, even appreciate it all? Maybe so

Maybe not. Hard to know

What I’ve got is all I know

Always tried to make the most, out of my situations

Although at times I get so low and see my expiration

Hard to know just where to go when there’s no destination

And I’ve been going with the flow for this whole simulation

And I’ve been stuck here on this road growing impatient

Cuz I know there’s something better for me on the way shit

Use that knowledge as my power and my inspiration

To get the fuck up out this bitch, and hit the fucking pavement

Shit, what woulda changed if I woulda seen that deal

Probably spend my whole advance on a condo in the hills

Probably cop a couple whips, or I coulda probably kept it chill

Who knows? It’s probably for the better

That i lost it all for real

Put me in my place, saw I wasn’t shit

Now I’m focused

Took a loss, had to pay the cost and kept it rollin

People disappeared when I was down and I took notice

Of the ones that held it down when I was out and I went ghost

When I didn’t have shit, got back to work when I was broke

3 hustles, no job barley hanging by a rope

Contemplating suicide and ain’t nobody even know

Hard to wanna stay alive when I’m seeing it all go

That’s when I see my moms eyes, flashback to my teens tho

Don’t wanna see her there in pain again by any means no

Rest In Peace to Rafitin we still speak in my dreams tho

Only thing keeping me going, only thing that brings hope

Is me knowing there’s more in store, and this shit ain’t forever

And me, growing through all the shit I see it getting better

Nothing lasts forever