[Verse 1]
I took him like a tonic
Like biting the bullet
Like practice erotic
I wasn't being honest
Tried to superglue the feelings to the first guy who wanted
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
It was just college
It was just feeling empty, and it was just Boston
I kissed him in The Commons
Skipped my dinner that night
Went to bed nauseous
Is it me, me, me
Me, me, me, me
[Chorus 1]
Nothing's real if you won't let it be
You can't treat lovе like a currency
If you don't know who you are
Thеn you won't know what'll make you happy
It's trial and error 'til it finally clicks
It'll take years but you'll find it
Until you know who you are it'll feel like a party trick
It'll take years but you'll find it
[Verse 2]
Don't think about him often
But when I do he's just a nail in the coffin
It's not like I'm haunted
But I think it cost me more than what it cost him
Me, me, me
Me, me, me
It sucks to feel behind
It sucks to feel like you're running out of time
It sucks to be nineteen
It sucks to find out you've been forcing feelings
It's me, me, me
Me, me, me, me
[Chorus 2]
Nothing's real until it really is
And surprise, you'll find you're romantic
When you know yourself that's when the genuine shit happens
It's trial and error 'til it finally clicks
It'll take years but you'll find it
Until you know who you are it'll feel like a party trick
It'll take years but you'll find it
It'll take years but you'll find it
It'll take years but you'll find it