[Verse 1]

Knew that, life could change in the simplest way

I was a, good kid with full attention to pay

I used to, homeschool and spend my time all day

Tryna find my own freedom in the game that we’d play

04 countryside livin ARK

It was a, fun time when my pops away

But right when, I would see that man get home I’d pray

That nobody throwing hands on my momma today

Right on top of the stairs is where I’d often stay

Outta sight, but close enough that I could hear what they say

But In the end didn’t matter cause it’d end up in screams

I just hope that everything will fade away in my dreams

Nothing holding us together like thesе household beams

I was waiting for the curе like a new vaccine

I would draw a better family on some paper reams

Or idolize what I saw in some movie scenes

Life was a mess and I didn’t wanna add stress

I was young, biting tongues, barely processed

Everything that I felt, wanted what’s best

Only thing we called home, problems unaddressed

Yeah, for every step I would always prep

Do my best on the side and try to say less

If I never knew the move you know id try to guess

“Isaac are you happy” Id say yes

This is where my mask was forged

Avoid, telling people how I feel to hide the void

So much fighting in my home that’s been destroyed

I don’t wanna be the fuel that sparks the noise

So deep within myself find a spot I could place it

Happiness ain’t in me but I know that I could trace it

Hopefully in time I won't feel it coming up

If I’m adding tension then I know I’m fucking up

It was all about the right choice, right path

Right voice, slight sad, I don’t wanna fight that

Failure brings a new wrath

But we already had that

For some reason thought I was something that they could take back

Like they had a receipt, that had my name

Irrational, to me my defeat, was always blame

For me I saw that love and mistreat, were both the same

But what separates? the latter ends in pain

Okay, show me a smile, show me a smile

Disassociate and stay in a fake state for a while

Got some hand me down shoes, let me swap just for a mile

I could see my moms face, what weighs and all that’s piled

Just a child, nothing more, what I’d give to open doors

That was way back before, understood not to ignore

Now I’m 23 the past catching up, it’s keepin score

Cracks in my mask now, and my smile has got me sore

I put this mask, uh

Over my face

Whether you friends, or people I hate

It’s deeply instinctual, saying escape

And nobody knows

Whether it’s me, the fake, the real, it’s blending my mind

And I let it merge, fuck, wait

Where did I go?

Ain’t no control

The mask, the front, was part of it real?

I felt a smile, did part of me heal? Did part of me grow?

Am I mistaking the plastic for something that's gold?

I feel the mask it, it took over my soul

[BRIDGE]

Soul, soul, soul, soul

It took over my soul

Took over my soul

[Verse 2]

It’s takin over I think that I lost it

Purity gone and my innocence

How could I know I was wearing my casket?

Now I been longing for difference

And it’s the same if equipped or I toss it

Fuck it I ain’t been the same since

I had issues to hide where I saw fit

And I’m still bleeding from pair imprints

Ion even wanna cut losses no more

I just wanna get back to myself

Feel like the old me still there

Wit no connection what I felt

Is a hollow feeling

Face glued to a veil

I’m at a blank state now

And it’s only one way out