Fixation

By Isaac App

Released on October 14, 2020

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[Verse]

I'm fucked up, in the back of the bug

Got my thoughts right now, runnin' back to the plug

I'm fucked up, never askin' for love

Wanna drown myself, then see from above

I'm tryna give myself what I need

But I can't see through this mental greed

It feel like they want me to fail

Too faded now, so I can't really tell (I can't tell)

Back and forth, I know the source

I threw the torch, like I ain't gonna feel remorse

Cloudy course, I hit the brakes

With all the force, swervin' right

I ain't see the horse

Only thing left that I see, divorce

If I take this hit, it'll reinforce

Only fake pеople can I re-endorsе

'Cause I hate myself, and they all support

O-o-on the way to right, but I made a wrong

This shit turned up, I ain't seein' dawn

Jump in the whip, turn the AC on

Got my foot down, now I'm a speeding pawn

Hit 45, and my grip is strong

With a blonde haired bitch, and we yellin' songs (Yellin' songs)

My life feel too fuckin' long

But I guess this shit where I belong

Wait, oh

My life too crazy

I don't even even know where I been lately

Better hit me with that UAV

We smoked in the car, so a little hazy

I can't see, but I got some faith

Venom in me, and it's got some weight

Slowin' my pace at a faster rate

This life 'bout to end, and I'm sayin': "Oh wait"

I knew this shit would make me feel invincible

But I just pulled up, and feel like a criminal

I'm fading back, and I'm losing my visual

I hit a whip, and I'm thinking it's flexible

Oh, my bad

Maybe I should go back to the pad

Maybe I smoked too much with the pass

Maybe I'm stuck in a state where I crash, yuh (Where I crash)

4 AM and I'm feelin' wasted

Had a few back then, but I still can taste it

Accusations whether if I did it

And I know this feeling, 'cause I fucking hate it

Two blocks out, I'm alleviated

Blacked out once, but that shit been dated

Hoping this time it's a different statement

But I just pulled up, see a blurry pavement

Turn up my head, now I'm seein' blue

And there lil' bro been fixated too

One step out dippin', leanin' through

While my body aching, like I caught the flu

One two cop over on the right

In this Intersection where it's fight or flight

My decision wasn't made tonight

Well, I'm moving up without a thing in sight

Yeah, lil' bitch, I'm fuming (Fuming)

Rage impulsive movement (Movement)

Wonder if my mind not human (Human)

And everybody think I'm choosin' (Choosin')

And know it ain't me, but a demon (Demon)

Every emotion feed him (Feed him)

Livin' off me for the season (Season)

But it's just me who sees him, shit

Losing my speech, and I'm losing my touch

I took a breathe, now I'm losing the rush

Mind caving in, but it ain't gettin' crushed

Wonder if I'ma remember this much

Losing my mind, and I know where it went

Back in the cell, where I go to repent

I'm indecisive, I live on a fence

Stuck in a place where there's nowhere to vent (Nowhere to vent, nowhere to vent, nowhere to vent)