We learned to stop staring at the floor

We learned to stop hoping it would offer us our guidance anymore

There was a turn before you froze

We all knew it was something when

Everyone was backing up

(I know it won't matter, I won't keep bringing it up)

So we'll sit in silence once more

So we offered silent answers

(open so, as you're breaking up)

Kept to myself and you kept to yourself

And we hoped one another could not keep it up

Moving across the hall

I said I'd call

There was no answer

There was no reason

Wandered off from the back yard

There were no answers to anything we called

I waited for you before we went in

And you said

Slept at your desk and you slept in your closet

You got rid of everything but it wasn't working

Fled into turning to seek rolling over

There's no reason to think that anything was happening

But it still feels like we're falling forever

And even in dreams

There're still some things that we can't make up

Said it really happens if you don't wake up

Thought if you concentrated hard enough you could control

The governing circumstances keeping you grounded

You tried but you couldn't control anything

And there's no reason we set there

On the grass that never grew

Feigning interest in alien things

So at least we had something to say

Answering between clarity

So at least we had some place to stray

Wait on headlights when you're coming over

Still worried it won't go away

And all we had as we waited there

Was waiting there

Promise me you'll never bother

Asking me what I'm thinking when you know

You know there's nothing to say

You'll know what it is anyway

Entirely something else than when you're alone

Maybe it was something we didn't want to know

Maybe it earned its place hidden under us all

All the time trying to give meaning undue

All the time on each other neither one of us knew

Feels like we've been falling forever like a satellite

Set floating there in orthogonal orbit

Learned to stop commiserating

Learned to stop equivocating

Learned to rely on our relying on anaphora

With "haiku-like imagination"

Almost missed the view from the window

Woke up at midnight, headlights rolling over

Said there was something so important that it couldn't wait

Said you were watching but you couldn't shoulder it now

We learned to stop staring at the door

We learned to stop wondering if we could still escape it anymore

Everyone saw, I know, I know

The blank frames on your book shelf

Everyone felt better then

(I won't, I won't)

There was a place we both said we'd meet if we fall too far apart

So we sit still staring at the floor

So we sit still hoping that we'll actually do what we learned we should do

And that either of us will find someplace to start