All that I remember

Turning over

Static tone, an airlock door

An echo of a kindness I would know

You had sunk against the wall

We were motionless

We were in the scene

Unaware of its meaning

At action I would go

You authored an instruction

A catalogue of everything you left

Before you could do

If you could let me try

If you could give me time

I can make things right

A letter returned to sender

(we tried)

I had offerеd its destruction

‘Cause evеrything reminds us of us still

Stuck and trying not to grow

The quiet way we let go

Echoed back

An ire I would know

Then again again again again

Again I guess it was me

But we couldn't know its futility

The time I spent just to get just as ill again

I don't have the words, I don't feel right

(The time always eludes us now

Always escapes somehow

I want to go, I know, I don't feel right)

Everyone is waiting

Everyone is staring

Everyone's aware, just give them something

Fine, we lied, okay with it

Unloved, unseen, but

There was permanence in our desire to be

Then I caught it

A reflection I don't know

Up at night, rewind the replay and overanalyze

It didn't do you any good did it?

Besides, the datapoints never seemed to

Actuallize a change, a benefit

You tried to emulate what you thought the rest were like

But everyone seemed to overemphasize

The feelings we're all supposed to get

Regret

It didn't fit it didn't fit it didn't

Sit right that everyone's supposed to have this

Insight, with no developmental fist fight

You walk on the set so unprepared to face the stage lights

Words never even read let alone memorized

Fed the lines in time but it doesn't sound like something I would say

I really tried to make us all believe it

But they all could hear the way I hesitated when I spoke

No getting over it

Things aren't the same now

I just need

Some more

Time

All that I can remember now

A tidal vertigo

An empty row

A silence I would know

A departure

A deduction

Reliant on devices never intended

Brace the fall

Cabin lights fading as it scrapes the hull

(a violence I would know)

Pace your crawl

The water's coming in already half full

Even though

Surrounded by ocean inescapable

(a rescue wouldn't show)

Dreamed a kindness I will know