When we looked beneath us

The ground was no longer there

How long had it been?

(how long without it?

Had it ever been under us then?)

Our hands would meet then pull away

Couldn't keep the thoughts from coming back

Of us and everyone you meet

And what your last words will be

And you were sure it would be something you wouldn't mean

Hushed by the sound of your asystole

Then at peace

When we looked beside us (not now)

Bedside, the breathing machine

Not quite how wе thought it would be

(knotted around you

How hard it was to see)

Does it feel likе

We're watching ourselves on camera?

(recurring scenes)

Even if we plead with the screen

No matter how many times we

Offered ourselves something (a solution)

There was permanence in our resignation

No argument

No new direction

No revision

Changed our mistakes

We did it the same way

It turned out the same way

It always ends the same

And nothing ever changed

Hand on my shirt sleeve

There was something you couldn't say

There was some place you couldn't stay

Lowering your voice you said

You want this all to end

You wanted everyone to go away

(stall, you said, rainfall, you said, the only thing)

(what now, still, you said, be still, you said, rainfall)

Felt painted on the walls

A form unfilled just faintly traced

Only several days

Start to fade away

(your weights will lift away)

Suddenly

Only shade remained

Void of what

Gave your mark its shape

(your body lifts away)

Further down

As you drift away

Floating on

Further floating until

Nothing

(you're making a mistake)

Reaches anymore

Only rainfall

Rainfall