I got some things make me uncomfortable, yeah

I got some things I dont bring up at all

Would you help me if you seen me fall?

Or would you laugh and not help me at all, yeah

I've done some things that I ain't proud of either

My lifes a movie in a lonely theater, wait

Where you goin huh?

Why you tryna leave?

Oh you dont like me cause these things that I'm about to speak

Yeah I'm a christian but that doesnt mean I go and pray

Go away

Feelings that I'm feeling never go away

And it's my fault see I'm quick to blame

You say you wanna change

But you dont try to change

Tell me it ain't that easy

Like you ain't tried it James

Oh but I really did

I use to laugh now it's rare to catch me crack a grin

I know some things that you ain't ready for, yeah

I know some things that might upset you more

Say you want love if it ain't me then what you lookin for?

It's me you claim but on socials you say you never date

So we go back and fourth

But I dont waste my time

You see I'm quick to end it

If you dont like that maybe this shit ain't yo fuckin heaven

I packed my bag up

I ain't comin back home

I ain't bouta act grown

I just know I have grown

To any people out there though

I Apologize if I made you cry

See I've done some things that i ain't proud to say i did

But if you ask me ima always admit

Tell you why I did it not no sorry and shit

I ghosted lotta fuckin people and that's hard to admit

I dont need no one to call me son

It's been 18 years I'm doin just fine without one

Dad texted, told me that he hope i see it

He said sorry about everything i dont believe it

Dont you ever call me son

You missed out on you and me

18 years ago was that opportunity yeah

You ain't seen my first breath

You won't see my last breath

You the one that left me me and that's a fact check

You dont get it yet

Maybe you should listen in

I lost my mind when I started dippin lips in gin

Dont think you know me cause you dont

See I'm afraid of death

But I'm still tryna find it

18 already have regrets

So I won't stay in silence

I gotta be myself

Even if that's meanin gettin violent

Yall dont like my tone

But I won't ever change it

You try to force it though

I might get fuckin dangerous

I dont like being told

That I should change lyrics I wrote

This is my drive on a one lane road, yeah

So heres a highfive to family but let me go

And I'm sorry I dont really rarely pick up phones

I prefer talking in person just the way I grown

If you dont like it that's okay see I respect you too

But this my island rules, dont think I'm inviting you

And its crazy all my life I just wanted to rap

But nowadays all I do is just throw it in trash

Make a good song here and there but I ain't playin it back

I dont think that I'm that great

How can I be he-ro when I'm needing saved

I ain't trusting people that dont know my name

See I ain't do this music thing for fame

I could die without it and be happy James

A real rapper once said dont waste money on my grave

Put my ashes in a trash bag, I dont care where they go

Just as long as they know

Real music all I did was stay woke