[Verse 1: $inikill]

Looking back to what the devil told me

He told me that's it cold and lonely

Told me if I show my feelings

That's a weakness homie

Time you hit your twentys

You'll be lonely, chocking on depression

Stressing by yourself

Surrounded by these phony people

All these voices in my head

Keep on saying I should kill myself

Only debt, its never fans

You don't need help

You ain't got no fucking friends

Because your such a joke

Just do them all a favour

Grab that belt, and hang yourself

Even though I'm at that point in life

Where I have given up

I still try to fight

I don't why

I'm feeling sick as fuck

Weak as fuck

Repeating in my head

Until I'm chucking up

Every day I question

Asking

Why the fuck im waking up?

[Verse 2: $inikill]

Why the fuck am I still here, ay!?

I still question on myself

I'm still fucking with my health

Like this is all okay

I know I'm only 26

Yet i Feel like shit

I would search for happiness

But it Don't exist

I can't even buy a house

I'm struggling with my rent

Ain't no fucking food up in our mouths when all we eat is debt

Second guessing is this hell?

Cause I can't tell...

I've been this way for way to long

Fuck it, all then well

All these cones I'm punching

I dont know how much it's fucked my brain

If im ever blessed to have some kids

I hope there not like me insane

Hopefully I kill myself

Before that time In life I say

Suppose to give a fuck

But my love has just burned away