This is meaningless oscillation

Don’t remember why but the knee jerk’s there

You’re fucking dirt to me

Blood’s as thin as air

These hours alone have opened up my eyes

To the filth that infests in a broken mind

Now the ghosts keep me sane in the silence

Nursing gouged out eyes and I’m fading to black

Ruminating

Panic attacks

Shifting blame

Taking shame

Making blind men see through rose shades

Please

It’s far too much

I’m having tremors from my feet to my chattering teeth

I don’t remembеr how it felt

All I feel is the swell in my chеst

And the spasm

Crippled

Falling to the floor

Get it under control

I can’t remember who I am

All I am is a man on his knees

Rotten roots on the tree

But all I see are the leaves

Nursing gouged out eyes and I’m fading to black

Ruminating

Panic attacks

Shifting blame

Taking shame

Making blind men see through rose shades

I’m moving forward

Saving my own skin

Taking everything

Conceding nothing

Confirmation forms

Breaking through but still torn

I’ve never felt so free

I haven’t felt like myself

You had a hand in who I was

Sculpted by the hands of tragedy

Am I who I was

Or the result of empathy

I’m getting lost in the freefall

Crawling out of my skin

Soaking in waves of emotion

But now I’m numb to it

I was born an empath

My heart will beat in time

I’ve been moving too fast

Pulling these shackles with a broken spine

Pulling shackles

Pulling shackles