When I close my eyes, you’re there every time

The realisation that I failed you and I’m the one to blame

How I hate myself for the hell I put you through

Now I see what leaving did to you

Who am I without regret?

And how do I correct the mistakes I’ve made?

What will it take to break this cycle of self-decay?

Selfish and I proved it I left you in need and I knew it

And I can’t bring myself to talk about it, how I failed (how I failed) How I never looked back

How I took the easy escape from what we had

Deep down I know I was the one setting myself up to fall (deep down I know)

My answers are questions

Lead me through my mental streams

A seeded lie, and faults are mine

Counting candles I decline

Saluting my own mind

It's a fight to find my sovereignty

Choosing to find a way born often here

I wade through the fiction, I find that I am alive

I hope somehow these words make their way back to you

Know that I always cared, that I’m still thinking of you

Where do I turn when I can’t turn back to you?

Where do I stand if it’s not next to you?

Next to you