{Verse 1}

So tell me, did you ever love me?

Or was I a cure for lonely?

A sad if only

Better not knowing whether together meant slowly

But see I knew

We just wanted something new

No tried and true but fast and loose

And slip the knots pairs get into

But I got caught up

A lot was enough

But I needed more

So hand, meet cuff

Throw keys down the drain

Cause I am insane

From playing this game

My feelings displayed

But I can't abstain from pain, guess I love it

Cause I have no fear of it

Sometimеs I think I want it

So F*** it, go ahead

And selfishly play with me

Carеlessly set me free

Show your identity

All your hostility, and

{Chorus}

Break my bones just to feel alive

Rip my flesh and bleed me dry

When every breath's just another lie

How do you sleep at night?

I won't give you another fight

No more forgiveness behind these eyes

When every breath's just another lie

How do you sleep at night?

{Verse 2}

Do you sleep at night?

Knees tucked curled up on your side?

Cause when I try all the voices fight inside of my mind

They say "embrace the sin to feel alive

No holy water Jesus drank wine

This time is fine for blind driving, cyanide and cutting ties"

I'm cracked and I'm beaten

I'm broke and and I'm bleeding

This hope is misleading

Can't cope with this feeling

My throat is just screaming

This rope and this ceiling

Are so unappealing to me

A life sentence ain't free

And see, I'm lost at sea but who's counting

How do I build a boat when I'm drowning?

This loss cost more to me than you

Detox talks got me confused

And you just needed me to use

But still, I want you to

{Chorus}

Break my bones just to feel alive

Rip my flesh and bleed me dry

When every breath's just another lie

How do you sleep at night?

I won't give you another fight

No more forgiveness behind these eyes

And every time you apologize

Darkness takes the light

{Bridge}

(light) that was guiding me

Showed me who I'm supposed to be

The light that made the most of me

(The thing that felt so close to peace)

I came to you

I favored you

You told me I was made for you

But all the times you pulled me through

(I knew that I was just a fool)

You faked life for me

And ecstasy

Gave me chains to set me free

Gave me what I thought I'd need

And now I'm going mad