~verse 1

I got these growing pains, they growing up inside my mind

They won’t stop, so I give in to feeling terrified

Yeah all diss bullshit it keeps happening it never dies

We live to die, I need to choose but I can’t compromise

Im looking both ways Im bout to leave it all behind

Im in a gap, my mind’s trap, now I’ve lost track of time

My mind state, it’s like New York but ain’t no state of mind

We live like zombies, we consume, it’s like we hypnotized

Yeah, it’s like we hypnotized to livе in other people’s liеs

We don’t know what we doing, we just compensate for time

It’s running out and I can’t theorize how I’ll survive

But I just keep on going

Keep on going

Spending mine

~Chorus

It’s all these obstacles they getting in my way

No i can’t handle this Im pushing you away

But It ain’t working I need some help

And I keep going trying to find myself

~Verse 2

I ain’t no royalty, I pester see what I can get

It ain’t disloyalty but loneliness my only threat

And when you hope for something better than stress and cigarettes

I keep on trying find myself, i ain’t find nothing yet

~Chorus

It’s all these obstacles they getting in my way

No i can’t handle this Im pushing you away

But It ain’t working I need some help

And I keep going trying to find myself

~Verse 3

Yeah

We take it nice and slow, understand that we all need to meet the tatus quo

Controlled by media, my life feels like a puppet show

I’m like Van Gogh, I don’t believe in me, I’m letting go

And not through bullet holes, but lyrically I feel alone

I’ve been pushed and I’ve been prodded, still I haven’t shown

My true self, so it’s bout time I reap what I have sown

I’ll Reap what I have sewn

You don’t know but trust i need this, rap’s my only home