Low - Intellectual

[Verse 1: illbert]

Are you watchin' this? My fallen stream of consciousness

My life's a fucking constant mess, can't cure it with this rotten sex

Litter the floor with condom wraps filled with thoughts of a long-gone ex

I wonder how I've gotten this far without any goddamn rest

So ponder this, my life's gotten quite ponderous

Don't even smoke much now cause I've got so much tolerance

It's ominous, I can't imagine things will change

You're getting a clear shot at my soul in its fucking darkest stage

So take it, cause I doubt I can make it

Spirit's been crushed a million times, now it's your turn to break it

I can't fake it anymore, living's become a heavy chore

Some people say that life's a bitch but I say an expensive whore (that I can't afford)

What will you condemn me for? Just take your fucking pick

I've forgotten all I know except that my mind's fucking sick

So suck a dick, all you fucking pricks

Who tell me that the way I feel is just because I'm such a wimp

Oh wait, I am just a little bitch

I'm feeling low

All that you need to know

Is that no matter what you think this shit is surely not for show

So when you go

Please don't lock the door

When you return you'll find me unable to leave the floor

I'd rather fill the shoes of just about anyone else

Cause I'm angry at the world, but I'm madder at myself

My thoughts eat me alive and burn my skin off with acid

Only suitable response is to remain calm and placid

I'm made of plastic, don't know how I've lasted

Any question that you have I promise I've already asked it

Take me to my casket, my stamina is blasted

Since I've learned to fabricate happiness with some practice

I'm not quite past it, I often relapse

Think into thoughts so dark I want to blow off my own kneecaps

If you can't see that I'm in need of rehab

Not for drugs, I just don't know where to find peace at

Just like Meshach, Shadrach, Abednego

I'm burning in a furnace I'm about to feel my head explode

I can't let it go, so please just send me home

Don't tell my parents, they love me, I don't want them to know