[Refrain 1]

I, I, I can't even explain why, why (why, why)

Do my eyes look full to you or what, what (what, what)

Seems everybody's living the same life, life (life, life)

I thought my light was gonna shine

But it seems I was only casting shadows

If you got suicidal thoughts

You should consider not

You will never escape the pain you will just respawn

I will never get well again I don't care about samsara

All I had to live for is knowing that if I die I will have to redo the walk

[Verse]

Thought I could wait out my life (my life)

But an eternity was too long

Either trapped behind my eyes or being instantly reborn (born)

No morе options

No more options that can change my fate (fatе)

Safe to say, when I'm 80 I'll look at it the same way

And that's why I am driving around fast

Won't talk to you cause I know you won't last (won't last)

Tried to make chemistry but all I got was a chemical imbalance

Tried to be a love doctor

But my heart was broken alas

Can't wait til I make something other than rap

Cause it shows how I'm now, not in the past

[Refrain 2]

Five years ago I had no idea if I'd be alive today (day)

In 19' I thought I had my swan song around that May (May)

Life went by like the blink of an eye but now I know the way

And I know that when I am 80 I'll look at it the same way

Death is the grass on the other side

Wait til' it spreads into your house

Or life recursively goes around

And you can't see the time

You're dead to me

You don't observe it so you won't see it (it)

When the eternity is over you know that you won't be missed

[Outro]

When I was young I was fearing I was misunderstood

Until I figured I was growing into my father and this is what he went through

So why, why should I try to get out of my bed?

When my son will just end up like me, end up dead