[Intro]
Yo, nineteen, yeah
IAMJAYCE, yeah
September two-nine
One-nine-nine-eight (Yeah)
[Verse 1]
I thought by this point that things would be plenty fun
But I'm already bored of life and I ain't even twenty-one (Fuck)
Feeling lonely and I'm 'bout to go and get a gun
Just to get a spark of life, wonder "What've I become?"
The only time I get some joy now is when I cum
And my hand is the only way that I can get it done
Feeling numb, feeling lost, feeling hopeless
Going in circles like I'm in a state of hypnosis
[Pre-Chorus]
I always gaze at the sun in the sky
Wondering why I'm living an uncomfortable life
I don't got nothing to hide, I don't know nothing
If I did, I'd keep it tucked up inside
Like cellulite in the thighs of a fat chick
Only way that I can pass the time is if I practice
Always getting better so don't say I'm not on that shit
If you don't, I'ma lay you down on the mattress
Shafted when you choke up on a fat dick
[Chorus]
Going through a mid-life crisis but I'm only nineteen (Nineteen)
Why can't I have nice dreams? (Nice dreams)
This is why I can't have nice things (Nice things)
Most people young and reckless but I'm just fucking restless
Always doubting myself and I'm doubting that helps
I know I just can't help it
[Verse 2]
I thought by this point my life would be a movie scene
Partying, doing drugs, and see a girl in her new bikini
Instead, I'm up at 4 a.m. recording this fucking song
I'm not an insomniac I just pretend that nothing's wrong
I should be in Amsterdam with my homies and puffing bongs
Instead, I'm flicking through the TV channels and, oh, nothing's on
What the fuck is wrong? Where's that spark I once had
I know if my life was a TV show I would turn back
[Pre-Chorus]
I always gaze at the sun and the sky
Wondering why I'm living an uncomfortable life
I don't got nothing to hide, I don't know nothing
If I did I'd keep it tucked up inside, pretend I'm lovely and nice
Like a catfish, only way that I can pass the time is if I practice
Always getting better so don't say I'm not on that shit
If you don't, I'ma lay you down on the mattress
Shafted when you choke up on a fat dick
[Chorus]
Going through a mid-life crisis but I'm only nineteen (Nineteen)
Why can't I have nice dreams? (Nice dreams)
This is why I can't have nice things (Nice things)
Most people young and reckless but I'm just fucking restless
Always doubting myself and I'm doubting that helps
I know I just can't help it
[Outro]
Yeah, nineteen
One-nine-nine-eight forever
IAMJAYCE