[Verse 1]

I didn't lose love, I abused love

Life had thrown me that deuce up

'Cause I'm too fucked

And too numb, from all of this purple sittin' in two cups

I've had my Nan in the court room, cryin' for me

Try to help, ruined her retirement for me

Took em for granted

Meanwhile I stand up for snakes who are plottin' and lyin to me

Maybe I don't even know what love is

Maybe I belong in the motherfucking rubbish

Maybe cause I'm spawn of these motherfucking druggies

Maybe I don't care, lately I've been thinkin' fuck it

But I love you and I miss you

I wanna be together, but we've got too many issues

Wanna bite the bullet, and my homie got the pistol

I'm faded every night, I wake up thinkin' I could kiss you

But you gone, I'm alone in my bed now

I regret how I gave you the meds now

I just wish I could take you away

Just to make it okay

'Cause I hate how it went down

Ashes to ashes and dust to dust

We were in love

No one fucked with us

We were so perfect

And I hope that you know

It was only the drugs that's fucked us up

I swear no one in my whole life loved me

Except for my Nan and my Pop

And when they died, I died too

And you couldn't stop all the xannys I dropped

I know that I'm turning my life to shit

Fucked up crying while I'm writin' this

My whole life, I've been told life's a bitch

But my bitch was my life and I liked the sitch

[Chorus]

I'm fucked up, I'm not worth it

Fucked up, I'm not worth it

I hurt the ones that I love

I loved em so much but they don't deserve it

I'm fucked up, I'm not worth it

Fucked up, I'm not worth it

I hurt the ones that I love

I loved her so much but she don't deserve it

[Verse 2]

The love of my life got thrown away

Brain numb, heart pump novacane

I'm getting fucked up

I'm yelling fuck love

When this bottle hollow

I'm probably gonna blow my brains

I'm so ashamed I wanna run to you

So ashamed of what I done to you

I'm showin' pain

By blowin' cain

I'll go insane, i never wanted to

I got off the crack for you

Hurt you so much, now I'm turnin' my back on you

I know you could go and do better

Be happy, but know that I did what I had to do

I love you but that doesn't matter

I'm just like my mom and my dad, I

Look in the mirror

See everything that I hate

Wanna headbutt that shit 'til it shatter

I wanna die and you saved me

She want a life, she want babies

But too many xannys

Were making us addicts

I swear that's what made the bitch hate me

I know that you'll be okay

Just forget about me okay

'Cause my mental health is so far gone

I'ma end in the hospital, DOA

Misery loves company

It's a mystery why you fucked with me

I'm a loser babe and you knew that from day one

I don;t know why you stuck with me

You're perfect, I'll never get better

I'm not worth it, I'll never get better

I'm fucked in the head

But I'll never forget her

I always thought we'd be together, forever

[Chorus]

I'm fucked up, I'm not worth it

Fucked up, I'm not worth it

I hurt the ones that I love

I loved 'em so much but they don't deserve it

I'm fucked up, I'm not worth it

Fucked up, I'm not worth it

I hurt the ones that I love

I loved her so much, but she don't deserve it