I woke up this morning in a house not a home

I woke up this morning I was all on my own

Since I woke up this morning I don’t know what I’m doing

I been all in my dome

Everything is unknown

Wonder if she’ll cooperate and stay away

How do I operate on the day to day?

And least last night I didn’t lay awake

I freed myself of the anxiety I couldn’t shake

But new anxieties that vie for taking its place

And make me feel ashamed of throwing shade are always taking shape

I swear I do my best to never give em space

But I feel like I’m gonna break

Sometimеs I need a break for goodness sake

I’ll just say it

I’m feeling rеally scared

All this working on my spirit’s really working on my spirit

NOW I'M ALONE AGAIN

AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN

Couple specifics and details

I've been deleting pictures and emails

And texts

And trying not to feel stressed each moment not knowing what’s next

In truth I didn’t know what’s next before but having her arm around my neck would help me rest assured

But now that ship has left the shore

For sure

I hope she don’t feel that I don’t love her no more

I hope she don’t feel she’s not worthy of love

Might have had a shot at keeping her trust

If I hadn’t been so worried about all the above

But

None of that helps me now

Being that i done gone and messed around

And met my wife I built a life of days and nights of care around

To then proceed to tear it down

NOW IM ALONE AGAIN

AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN

Frontline without no shield

It is way deeper than preparing my own meals

But daily I’m reminded at least she won’t put my stuff away someplace where I won’t find it

Still often times I think of life and wish I could rewind it back before I lost it ‘fore I had to find it

I wouldn’t be despondent

Being happy is the object

I could always learn the way to make a omelette

I fear she’s the last of the cuties that won’t only do me for diamonds and rubies and stuff

And I got no one to go to the movies wit but maybe I been going to the movies too much

And plus I’m dag near forty

But thinking that way feels so corny

I’ma just try to enjoy myself

But this is not where I saw myself

ALONE AGAIN

AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN