GOING DOWN! - Intellectual

I used to write on my phone in the bathroom

Crying until I'd combust

Typing the feelings I couldn't digest

A sadness that fire could never burn up

But I used to smoke alone and think about funerals

Wonder what color of doves

They would release at the moment I finally

Got me the courage to turn it all off

Panic attack in my classes

Hiding my tears in my glasses

Happiness only imagined

I'm losing traction

Hope I don't lose any passion

All of my grinning is acting

Try to be rational

When I can but all that

I'm living is tragic

When will the God that

People have prayed to about me just

Ever givе me any answers

Herе I am

When everything's done

Thought I would sink

But I got back up

Never could tell

If I'd walk or run

But I know now

That I'd make that jump

Everything changed in my life

In a flash

Found myself

In a slump in the ash

Start too slow

But it ends too fast

This is my life

Man, fuck my past

Everything that I decided

Was all that I was

I took the seat on the bus

Furthest away from the people

Like always because

There ain't a soul I could trust

Everything that I'm becoming is probably bad for my health

But I'll learn it all later

And I hate it

This is all I have to give you

Don't you feel like you're at home?

We are

No matter what you do I'm still right here

No matter what you do

I'm here