I started having to think back

On people I mismatched

But nevertheless

It's every mishap

That made me the man I am

I'd never give back

The smile they stole from me

I'm happy to live that

And nobody knows

Taking my soul to try to put on a show

To try to master the flow

To make it past all the people

That would stand in my road

But I need to go

'Cause If I don't vent to you now I'mma jump for sure

Off that roof straight into the floor

Get back up and then go for more

'Til my skin ain't got no pores

It's all fake people talking like they know the story

Smilеs I show like it's hunky dory

Friends I know turn to jokes it's boring

That's why my dopaminе is acting lowly

Let me tell you why the fuck I'm recording

Twenty-three people on the list I'm mourning

Thought that they were with me but the rain is pouring

I don't see a future where their life's important

The people I love I lay upon a short list

Fisher, Micheal, and Bella that's all you're gonna get

I never try to embellish myself I'm full of shit

But that's a group that I promise I'll never fucking diss

And Mariah, I remember what the fuck they did

Keep your head up homie I won't let 'em forget

I've been stuck in the freezer thinking 'bout others' sins

Like that bitch that drunk dialed and played pretend

Don't think I forgot that call you made

Nox and I still joke about it, it's all in vain

Moving on, I think I need me a coffee mate

Stimulation is the only way my heart won't break

It's still actually fuck you all

I don't try to be your friend

Don't need to say I'm involved

I'd like shout some people out

Cause they ain't breaking my balls

But if I did then I'd regret it in a month when we fall

It's all fake people talking like they think they know me

Think materials and cashflow will control me

When all I ever do is prove you people below me

All I ever needed was a reason, so hold me

Close, I'm coming out my house for once to prove that I'm the best

I've been rapping since a child now I say shit with my chest

It's impossible to fathom that I've made it all this far

But the truth of it is all I ever needed was the bars

Not the weed

Not the girls

Not the homies

Not the games

This the only motherfucking thing that kept me sane

I get disrespected when your video get plays

It's fucking shame that you're reading at 2nd grade

Levels to this shit

I barely even need to try

I just let anger buried in me come alive

I think all my peers will die before they 25

That's not even a diss

It's just the path they fucking ride

Don't you come at me as if I'm fucking you over

World had out for me forever I'm colder

Consequence of being real is that I'm a soldier

And I'll unpack the trauma when I'm a little bit older

And that's the path that I chose

And that's the path that I chose

And then the cycle will grow

And then I'll end up alone