I die twice I relocate

I come right back, Batarang

I say something, ShadowPlay

Giving that bitch tracheotomy

It's me

The one who was starting shit

Since he was 13

That's me, that's me, that's me (okay)

Dislikable fellow

My brain has never been mellow

I'm buried in Monticello

I'm sipping right from the kettle

It's simple, I'm still a rebel

I'm breathing but never settle

Like Paddington Bear

I'll tell 'em I'm coming

I'm back to get 'em and I

Choose to believe the lies for one moment

The agreements that we had were never spoken

Unholy is the ghost in my focus

Break down like every trace of emotion

I think I hate myself more than I care to admit

I break down like all the time because of how I been existing

Frightened, panicked and unstable but I seem just to blend in

Invite me like all the time to die but I will never give in

Saying that I lost my mind is just an understatement

Yeah like lately all the time I'm keeping myself so distant

Every day, every day is a fucking disgrace

Every day

I don't think I've known a single soul that understands me

Even if they did, I left before I hurt our standing

I don't regret anything, those bitches too demanding

There might be no difference between love, shipping and handling

Everything has its price and you are not a luxury

If you say you love me I feel like I'm in a quandary

Do I break another one or leave before it's ugly

Incessantly bantering about and then I put you above me

Couple months ago I started feeling strange

Began to swallow food real slow and then began the pain

Thought I had an issue with my fucking tonsils

So I had them taken out and thought that I'd still be sane

I'm laying in my bed in tears because it's still the same

Codeine going through my system like some Raising Cane's

Doctors treat my situation like a fucking game

I'm losing patience so I ask 'em who the hell's to blame

Baby I'm not feeling laughter I can't feel a thing at all

Try to empty out my mental but I've got no one to call

I've been stuck inside a brawl that no one could ever solve

Every day I wake up smaller than I was the day before

And I lied to every single person in my life who mattered

And now that's ending I think I've just been a bastard...

Start a brand new ending? And it's looking sorta bashful

Many reasons to keep going but I will look past them