[Intro]

I start to sense the panic

Coursing through my veins

A sickness so bleak and tragic, I feel its symptoms now

Just like a noose around my neck

[Verse 1]

And I've spent my whole life

Trying to prove to myself that I was good enough

When in fact if I'd just opened my eyes

I'd have been sure to find what it takes to get better

[Chorus]

I've lived my life under the shadow of doubt

I've lived my life beneath these darkened clouds

I've lived my whole life just trying to find a way to get by

Instead of fighting to make myself happy

[Verse 2]

I'm cursed by this life I've lead

Could you fix me? Because inside I think I'm dead

Anxiety creeps up my spine

And I lose all breath as it smothers me

The world around me starts to fade to black

And I feel nothing again, I'm cold just like ice

Forgive me for thinking, that I would be just fine

'Cause I don't think my heart can take much more

Watching someone else I love walk right out the door

And I feel that time's wasting away

Stuck with one foot in my grave

And I am so afraid, I am so afraid

[Chorus]

I've lived my life under the shadow of doubt

I've lived my life beneath these darkened clouds

I've lived my whole life just trying to find a way to get by

Instead of fighting to make myself happy

[Bridge]

And one day I'll tell my sons

To follow their dreams no matter the chaos it brings

Life is too damn short to wallow

In our self-inflicted misery

And someday I'll prove to my sons

That I'm truly sorry for everything

Because I tried my best to love them

While also doing what's best for

What's best for me

[Breakdown]

I want to live my life

Without regret

Sometimes I look in the mirror

Disgusted by my own reflection

That old familiar feeling

Creeps back up from the depths to steal my breath again