monster - Intellectual

[Verse 1: PVSCALE]

Couldn't go to school 'cause of anxiety

I think every girl I've ever had lied to me

I could never have a job, I just had to leave

But I'ma do it on my own, one day they'll see

Blacked out around my mom and it's never been the same

But I'm still poppin' pills and they still don't help the pain

I used to be a ghost, but now people know my name

My favourite way to cope? Drop a ladder in my drink

But I'm never as sad as people think

Even in a hurricane, I can shine through the rain

Me and capo were just youngins, we were smokin' on dank

Grew up in the city of Kurt Cobain

[Chorus: capoxxo]

I remember back in high school, I was just like you

Skipping class and smokin' weed and popping Xannies during school

I was just a freak, I swear to God, I wasn't cool

Started selling kush, coke, Xans, and more

[Verse 2: capoxxo]

Eventually, I got sent out to Idaho

I was stuck in rehab, just withdrawing in the snow

And once you're this deep, there's no going back

Wake up feeling sick until I go and need a price tag

Shawty said she hates me

When I'm off the opiates, I turn into a zombie

And she said I fucking scarred her

Don't even remember, drugs turned me into a monster

[Refrain: yung shame]

They didn't understand, that wasn't the cold

And I didn't have a hand that I could hold

They said we was fam, but then they fold

You said you gonna ride, but then you pulled

[Verse 3: yung shame]

I was so depressed, on the streets, fucked up

I just hit up all my friends, but no one really gave a fuck

And I asked my dad, but he had no more love for me

'Cause my life feels like a fucking movie