Feeling Bi-Polar

My mind's colder than solar systems

Feeling so imprisoned like a freezer I've been frozen in

Always find a good girl

Get bored and turn to hoes again

Sluts are into older men, its so hard to say no to them

Holding in emotions that people would never know

Drowning in this dark depression I wish I could rent a boat

I wish I could let it go, its like hell is my second home

Rarely smiled in my life, still people get jealous woah

People ask what motivates me, and I think they'd hate me

If they knew I took pills for depression and motivation

But fuck it I gotta live, and my dark thoughts haunt me

And anything to get me through the day like drinking coffee

These rappers forgot their content, they act like its a contest

To go and grab the mic and just recite a bunch of nonsense

All my interest been lost, right when swag became a topic

And rap became an object just to better people's pockets

But music is taking over my mind, body, and soul

Alone on this lonely road, that's why I was always stoned

To run away from my thoughts, I'm praying to every god

That the devil don't take me and put me in any harm

I'm on a road with a dead end, can't even trust my best friends

Or the girl I've been seeing I come home to and have sex with

I'm going fucking crazy within the house that I rest in

But still there's a percentage that's telling me that I'm blessed

But still I've been losing hope, cause they don't know what I go through

Or how fucking close that I came to tying a rope noose

If god gave you happiness just be glad that he chose you

Cause I still ain't found mine and I'm searching like Sudoku

Life stories and pro tools, people think fame is so cool

I'm hesitant to blow cause when you do they miss the old you

I see the future and I feel success is right here

It started with a dream but it becomes a nightmare

For Real

Everywhere we go

Nobody knows

Where time will take us

And even though

We're lost in time

We keep on moving so we don't get left behind

Lost in time