I’ve lost all strength

To get out of bed

These thought in my head

Make me wish i was dead

I’m still dreaming of red

Its my blood i want to shed

Taking my life cause I'm fed

Up with this path which I tread

After all thats said

I won’t go out of my room

To consumed by doom

Dark thoughts always loom

With happy thoughts of my tomb

These dark thoughts come easily

Deep thoughts keep Teasing me

_ How can I live happily

When Constantly I'll forever be

Trapped in my pain

Everyday the same

Everyday Im lame

Cause I Can't walk again

Even down the lane

Lost joy, its a shame

Its mark on my brain

Just like its a stain

So scared i tread lightly

No fight left in me

Then the night takes me

Whenever I think deeply

But thinking with no logic

Caught up in politics

How can I, deal with this

When nothing i think is positive

So then my head drops

These feelings just won’t stop

A skycraper i stand on top

Just thinking what I’ve not got

I am sick but i have no cough

Cause everything I think of

Is enough to make me jump off

And fall

Get those thoughts out of your head

No good to the world if your dead

Be strong like a thoroughbred

The people who love you are widespread

Some words are better left unsaid

If these feelings start to embed

There just being misread instead

Thats the reason your misled

You can’t seriously wish you were dead

God these though leave me with dread

This isnt a bad life you’ve led

Just wait until these feeling shread

I mean… 20 years old, story untold

Fill the hole and let it unfold

Behold the gold from words your told

Can’t let your soul roam uncontrolled

Got inner strength man your not weak

Not rich yet but far from the street

The futures may seem to be bleak

Maybe it will change by next week

So its time to make a new start

To be the best you have the heart

Grab a brush and make your mark

With the talent you possess in art

Don’t give life the middle finger

Just cause you feel like an inbetweener

Your on a different level no one can reach ya

Yea your the shit like a cleaveland steamer

Keep climbing to the top and don’t you ever stop

A failure is something that you’re not

You won’t flop, drop or be a prop

Just hop dot to dot till you hit top spot

Even if you’ve had enough

And sleeping rough has made life tough

No bluff, its fucked up like watching snuff

And your sick of slut backing up with there butts

Grind to hard to have time for grinding

These are mature feelings you’re finding

Thats why your feel like your childminding

So its time to rhyme real feelings unwinding

Fuck the drug addicts fucking up your sleep patterns

Dark rings under yours eyes like you've been battered

Then that time last summer it actually happened

Emasculating be that easily flatterend

These first world problems you’ve already told them

So rap for the loners who need someone to hold them

Don’t rap about money, these songs we've never sold them

Just spit some hot shit to other rappers and scold them

So stop that depressed shit, press d and hold shift

Time to delete it because its so fucking shit

And now with every lyric you spit

Is a step to the top even if sometimes you slip

No elegance like elephants

But evidence your relevance

To get into your element

If you need some embellishment

But people don't listen to the things you tell them

Just scream it at them till they get fucking tinnitus