Ketamine - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

Started with a pill just to quiet the tornado

Doctor said that it's safe, said it's part of the norm

Little white silence in the palm of my hand

Turned the volume down on the pain I can't stand

First it was relief, like a breath in my chest

Like the world finally gave me a moment of rest

But the calm came back asking double the fee

Now the cure that I trusted is controlling me

Ketamine dreams and a chemical sky

Float for a moment then I crash when it's dry

Every escape pulls me deeper instead

Every dose promises peace but it lies at best

Ketamine dreams where the pain disappears

The absence weighs heavy when the smoke dissipates

Now the nights feel longer when the bottle runs low

Every demon in my mind starts to whisper 'go'

I was chasing the calm but it is chasing me back

Every stride is a heist, stealing the air from my lungs

My intentions collapse before they can land

Like a prayer with no answer disappearing somewhere

I keep telling myself I can walk away clean

But the silence keeps calling my name in between

Ketamine dreams and a chemical sky

Float for a moment then I crash when it's dry

Every escape pulls me deeper instead

Every dose promises peace but it lies at best

Ketamine dreams where the pain disappears

The absence weighs heavy when the smoke dissipates

Every high has a fall and the fall hits hard

Like a fracture in the armor I tried to protect

I remember the days when the pain felt real

Now I numb every nerve just to not have to feel

When the room goes quiet and the buzz fades away

All the thoughts in my head start to circle and stay

I was looking for peace in these medicine pills

Now I'm fighting the hands of the habit I made

Ketamine dreams and a chemical sky

Float for a moment then I crash when it's dry

Every escape pulls me deeper instead

Every dose promises peace but it lies at best

Ketamine dreams where the pain disappears

The absence weighs heavy when the smoke dissipates