[Verse 1: Han]

Caught me off the oxy in a high

I'm dying inside, it's keeping me alive

Hoping maybe sleep will give me respite

But it's only tortured dreams when Morpheus arrives

I thought I loved you 'till I woke up

I remember summer '16, chilling on your leather sofa

I wish I never told you that I loved ya

One of many blunders, I call that a faux pas

Cold metal straight to the brain, I'm swimming in the moonshine

Mistaking my tears for the rain

Blue pill got me seeing red

Red pill got me feeling blue

But all the xanny in the world

Can't help me to get over you

[Chorus 1: Han]

Hurting me was just another pastime

Thought I'd venture deeper but I capsize

Suffocating, choking on the hash pipe

Cocaine and my heart both training flat lines

[Verse 2: Han]

I'm just another druggie

Want someone to love me

Secondarily, fuck me

Marry me, drug me

But I know I'm lucky if I ever reach the first one

Next to everyone else, I always been the worst one

I'm just tryna find that balance

Between self love and being selfish

So I gave myself to you

But you tore it all in two, no, no, no

[Chorus 2: Han]

Hurting me was just another pastime

Thought I'd venture deeper but I capsize

Suffocating, choking on the hash pipe

Cocaine and my heart both training flat lines

[Verse 3: Xander Lee]

Years before I gain my composure

Recognize that it's over

Then I start to recover and heal

Exposure washing me into the grave

(The undertow is washing me away)

I will not apologize for being blunt

Why the fuck did you decide to cut me off

Tell me, why do I deserve to lose your trust

At least just put down your front

All your false indignation, I know it's contrived

I hear your words quaver, you're lacking the spine

Acknowledge my emotions, look me in the eyes

And with all your conviction, tell me that you tried

[Chorus 3: Han]

Hurting me was just another pastime

Thought I'd venture deeper but I capsize

Suffocating, choking on the hash pipe

Cocaine and my heart both training flat lines

[Outro: Han]

Shawty gone bad

Shawty gone, shawty gone bad

Shawty gone bad

Shawty, baby, no

Do you need me now

Know I'm around

Know I'm around