Hey Seth, It's me Seth

I'm kind of scared

Scared?

Yeah, of all the time I might have left

I found the book of life and there's a lot of it I haven't read

I am dependent on some people that just might leave me for dead

Okay like who?

I don't know. I guess maybe my friends, I have opinions, that are different and I need to make amends

Okay but wait, try to gauge what is real and then once you separate your feelings that's when you can start to mend

Okay but hear me out, here are my thoughts

I can't decide if the pain I feel is really from them or not

And if it's really from me, am I willing to see that there isn't a reason to stop

And I really can't scream, and I really can't breath and I really just want to drop them

Just say it!

Fine, I'm sick of being ignored!

But only sometimes and some nights and some fights and so on and so I will back track and fix that and quickly I realize, the real prize

Is finding a way to not care

No you can care, just try to put them first

Insecurity is valid but you have to put in work

If you take everything they say and analyze it till you're hurt, you're really not that persecuted you are just a jerk

Woah. um...okay, maybe. I can't just focus in enough to tell myself

I'm crazy

You don't have to think you're crazy you just have to be aware

Just because they need their space doesn't mean that they don't care

Just because you want a certain thing doesn't make it fair

You have all these different moves yet you're stuck on neutral air

Just because you have a thought doesn't mean that you should share

You are deeply narcissistic and it should really start to scare

Me

Well then i guess it scares me too

Narcissism is big word that I don't think we should use

Well if the shoe fits, guess what, that's the fit that you should choose

Let's not beat around the burning bush lit by your ego's fuse

Okay fine, but sometimes people really treat me wrong

They critique every word of every line of every song

Yet when I do something amazing they are suddenly all gone without a trace to give me praise no matter how long it took me

Well, sometimes that's just how it goes

But the weight of their words is a weight that you choose

You give them power when you calculate the hate that they expose

So stop being their spotter and let them lift it on their own

Yeah your right, I think it's just a deep wound

My mother would critique me and there was nothing I could do

I tried everything to please her but I couldn't break through so when other people do it, I have to fight to not break loose

I understand Seth, remember, I'm you

You're talking to yourself just form a different point of view

Not everyone's your mother, not everyone is cruel

She did the best with what she had now I ask the same of you

Yeah I know, I'm trying my best

Well then most the battle is won, because we sat down and confessed

We took the time to take our cryptic thoughts and put them to the test

But now I have to go and to you I leave the rest