Why do I feel like this?

I don't know, but I don't wanna fight this

Nothing in life is priceless

Why the hell does my brain provide this?

I can't describe this, but despite this

Maybe I can learn to look behind this

But while I write this, can I survive this?

Self doubt, my brain supplies it

It's like a virus

In my brain, not showing politeness

I'm in a crisis, feeling lifeless

Feeling like this, I don't really like it

I can't describe it

And I can't deny it

And I can't move by it

My brain's a cell and I'm trapped inside it

They don't be quiet

They never be silеnt

It's like I'm mindless

In my brain, they'rе the pilot

If there's an exit, I can't find it

Get rid of these thoughts, I've already tried it

Self doubt, I can't refine it

It's weird, I can't really define it

Self doubt, I gotta confine it

So I can stop it from lying

But trust me, I've been trying

I tie it up, then I untie it

I can't hide it

Write these thoughts down, and then I rhyme it

Erase something, and then I rewrite it

Why the hell do I feel like this?

I don't really know

Why these thoughts never go

I just try to take it slow

But sometimes I gotta rock the boat

Rock the boat, back and forth

I put on a smile but I know it's forced

I know it's forced, I can't open the door

Time to eat, pain is the main course

With some depression on the side

And let's not forget about all those lies

All those lies, that y'all tell me

You just laugh, you never try to help me

You bring me down, you never propel me

It's not healthy, it overwhelms me

Nobody needs to hear about all your cash

I don't give a damn about all the sex you have

Nobody needs to hear all the lyrics that you steal

I can tell the difference from what's fake and what's real

I rap about my feelings, and I know people hate that

What do you want me to do, dye my hair and get some face tats?

You want me to be a mumble rapper, well that ain't gonna happen

Life was good until Future started rapping

It's difficult, but fixable

So critical, when digital

This is real life, not fictional

Not mythical, it's miserable

It's livable, admittable

To y'all I'm invisible

If you hate, you're not a criminal

And no, I won't get physical

But you make me hate myself

And that's clearly visible

But it could be nutritional

So I don't care if you're critical

So when I rise to the top

And my life is more livable

Just know you were additional

To me reaching my pinnacle

I feel like this every single day

All these thoughts inside my brain

No matter what I say, here they stay

Here they stay, every day

I keep on going down

I keep hating my sound

Every day's exactly the same

It's like a carousel, round and round

You don't like what I'm doing, who asked you?

I'm doing this because I have to

I don't want you to hate, but I gotta let you

Cos' I'll probably forget you, yeah

Why do I feel like this inside?

All these feelings I gotta hide

Telling me that I shouldn't even try

Only question on my mind is why