''Fuck the world don't ask me for shit, and everything you get you gots to work hard for it!''

''I'm slipping, I'm falling'', ''And I can't turn back''

''I ain't trynna go back to feeling fucking depressed again''

[Prelude: Graph]

Ben alles zat, mensen hebben geen enige fucking idee over mij, over mijn leven, niks

Nu weet je 't

[Verse 1: Graph]

On the stick I grab the rough end

But then again ever since I was a young man life dealt me the wrong hand

Instead of a royal flush, my eyes flushed tears

Years of fears, pain and stress

Left my brains depressed

Praying to God I would be laid to rest

With my eyes closed forever

I know I'm breaking up, but God knows better

Reaching for my soul when I composed letters

''I'm sorry that I had to do this mom, but I couldn't handle more pressure''

At night I'm rolling in bed, covered in cold sweat

Stressed and tensed having flashbacks of my past thinking is life worth living this way

Tried to live my life with fair play but I couldn't seem to get a fair shot in this game

And at times I've been asked: ''Yo Graph, why you look dead-eyed?''

That's 'cus they the window to the soul man, I'm dead inside

Through it all, everyday I still looked at both of my hands and prayed to God

Even though he seemed to have preyed on me

I'm God damned

[Interlude: Graph]

En dan zeggen mensen mij dat ik faith moet hebben en shit, dat ik hoop moet hebben

Fuck dat, ik heb geen hoop ik heb geen faith in niks

Ik wacht al heel mijn leven lang

Het wordt alleen maar erger, in plaats van beter

[Verse 2: Graph]

And let me be clear, I ain't trynna kick a sob story for you to feel sorry for me

I'm in a better place now, don't mourn me

But my childhood was torn by someone who I relate to

Who my parents made too

Yeah you know who you are I'll let you explain who

I was a product of love but you got me filled with hate

And now it's too late

Imma haunt you motherfucker 'till you decayed

And dad remember how you said you wanted no parts of me?

No apologies, I know that disease made you someone you didn't want to be

Watching you crumbled in bed for days made me upset

I wish I could take over the pain so you would stop feeling so bad

And it's funny when I reflect back on how much time we spent, reading the Qu'ran

Still, this is how my life's gon' end?

It made my faith drop

But I hope God forgives me and doesn't keep the pearly gates locked

I already got the '38 cocked

Now my paper is getting wet from the tears I shed

Plus my fingers are getting sore, still got a trigger to pull

So much love to all my family, don't cry just laugh

And remember me, I'll be looking down on y'all from up there

And to all those that stood next to me, just hold your heads

Until death crosses our paths

Sincerely yours, big Graph

[Postlude: Graph]

Ajo fuck deze shit wat ben ik aan het doen man

Mensen gaan me toch niet begrijpen joh, ik praat tegen de fucking muur hierzo, praat tegen mezelf

Ik kan een hele album schrijven over deze shit man, proberen dat alles goed komt, je hoofd omhoog houden en shit voor wat?

Kan deze shit niet meer hendelen vriend ik zie maar één uitweg

Blaas me fucking kop eraf hah, ik ga naar hel jongen

Fuck alles vriend, ben alles zat, ben alles zat, fuck dit

Ik zie maar één fucking uitweg huh?